i honestly do think that this is all too good for me. that i do not deserve to be here. i am below par. i am terrible at what i do. i do not know if i am competent enough. i do not know if i'd make it through.
i don't know if i'd be a good doctor.
April 3, 2009
Dumb And Dumber
i am depressed. i am suicidal. i am disappointed. i am mad. i am raging. i am furious. i am angry. i am sad. i am tearing. i am breaking. i am crumbling. i am losing myself. i am stupid. i am dumb.
i honestly do think that this is all too good for me. that i do not deserve to be here. i am below par. i am terrible at what i do. i do not know if i am competent enough. i do not know if i'd make it through.
i don't know if i'd be a good doctor.
i honestly do think that this is all too good for me. that i do not deserve to be here. i am below par. i am terrible at what i do. i do not know if i am competent enough. i do not know if i'd make it through.
i don't know if i'd be a good doctor.
March 31, 2009
Say No To Cats!
Yeah i yelled, screamed, shrieked or however you want to describe it, at the canteen the other day ALL BECAUSE OF A CAT.
I HATE CATS. HATE HATE HATE HATE. There aren't any particular reasons to it, but they just annoy me and they're disgusting and dirty and the fact that they purrrrr and brush your legs with their idiotic tail. STUPID FUGLY CATS.
And of course, that screaming session propelled me to stardom among my batchmates as the cat woman. Great. As if i need anymore of that. Sigh.
March 26, 2009
Shut up Shut up Shut up!
If i could just delve into your numb skull and read what you're thinking.
You stupid, dumb, idiotic, monkey, donkey!
Life would've been so much easier and less complicated.
You stupid, dumb, idiotic, monkey, donkey!
Life would've been so much easier and less complicated.
March 23, 2009
Joke Of The Day
Firstly, i'm glad KW, KL and i found our CFCS patient. Phew! So relieved! =) I just hope she's the right one. She's a funny little aunty, with an absolutely crazy family. LOL. Hope all is well. The process of searching for a patient has been gruesome, but it's been made a lot easier cos i have 2 male partners with me! =D Yay! that means i get to bully them and all, make them do the introduction (cos they're always the same = "hi aunty, we're medical students. is it ok for us to ask you some questions?") I get to skip that part and go directly into question time! *evil laughter* I'd always be the one that says "Go Kim Long" or "Go Kah Weng". MUAHAHA!
Anyways, today, i have to say, is one of the better days (or at least for me) in my family medicine posting, despite having to leave the house at 7am. Teaching clinic this morning was alright too. Definitely a handful to digest and a mountain's worth of revision of all the little things i've forgotten.
But but but, the afternoon was great! Or at least, it's been enjoyable. Dr. Loh was showing us tonnes of slides on the common clinical signs and symptoms seen in primary care. And and and, he talked to us also on the four most common parasites within the orang asli community in Msia. He drew out a table, listed down each complication and he drew the morphology of each's ova. Then he asked us (this is the funniest part LOLLLLL!!!),
"What's the difference between an ova and a cyst?"
So after much thought, Sara said,
"Cyst is for asexual reproduction and ova's for sexual"
And he said,
"MMmm, yes correct. Cyst is for asexual repro in a protozoa"
And then he continued,
"You know last time i asked your seniors this question, you know what they answer me ah?"
And we're like "what what what?!"
"They said ova is anything that's oval lorrr and cyst is anything that's round wannn"
And we burst out laughing!!!! Particularly me and Sara. HAHAHHAHAHA!!! Then he continued,
"That's why ah, you all don't think properly before you answer you know. If like that, so you don't say 'i wana play football lah', just say 'i wana play cyst!' "
LOLLLLL
"Or next time, if you see the moon, don't say 'wahh the moon', just say 'wahhhh cystttt!!!!' "
MORE LAUGHTERS!!
"And when you play rugby, it's not rugby anymore. It's 'play ova!!!' "
AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!
I swear to god me and sara laughed till we peed in our pants!!
Then i remembered Kah Weng's face in his old id card, it was really round. So i said
"Kah Weng, you used to look like a cystttt!!!" LOLLLL
Damn funny lahhhhh!!!
And he definitely needs extra art classes that boy. He drew the trichuris ova (which was supposed to look barrel-like) like a sausage!!! LOL and then, it became a flying saucer....
HAHAHAHHAHA!!
Oh oh oh! and today, is one day the 15 of us shall remember. Those in Fam Med now, you have to know what i mean really. Today in history, is a Oh My God day. LOL
Enough of laughing. I have to get back to my work. Sigh! Time flies. It really does *sinks to the back of my chair*
Toodles!
Anyways, today, i have to say, is one of the better days (or at least for me) in my family medicine posting, despite having to leave the house at 7am. Teaching clinic this morning was alright too. Definitely a handful to digest and a mountain's worth of revision of all the little things i've forgotten.
But but but, the afternoon was great! Or at least, it's been enjoyable. Dr. Loh was showing us tonnes of slides on the common clinical signs and symptoms seen in primary care. And and and, he talked to us also on the four most common parasites within the orang asli community in Msia. He drew out a table, listed down each complication and he drew the morphology of each's ova. Then he asked us (this is the funniest part LOLLLLL!!!),
"What's the difference between an ova and a cyst?"
So after much thought, Sara said,
"Cyst is for asexual reproduction and ova's for sexual"
And he said,
"MMmm, yes correct. Cyst is for asexual repro in a protozoa"
And then he continued,
"You know last time i asked your seniors this question, you know what they answer me ah?"
And we're like "what what what?!"
"They said ova is anything that's oval lorrr and cyst is anything that's round wannn"
And we burst out laughing!!!! Particularly me and Sara. HAHAHHAHAHA!!! Then he continued,
"That's why ah, you all don't think properly before you answer you know. If like that, so you don't say 'i wana play football lah', just say 'i wana play cyst!' "
LOLLLLL
"Or next time, if you see the moon, don't say 'wahh the moon', just say 'wahhhh cystttt!!!!' "
MORE LAUGHTERS!!
"And when you play rugby, it's not rugby anymore. It's 'play ova!!!' "
AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!
I swear to god me and sara laughed till we peed in our pants!!
Then i remembered Kah Weng's face in his old id card, it was really round. So i said
"Kah Weng, you used to look like a cystttt!!!" LOLLLL
Damn funny lahhhhh!!!
And he definitely needs extra art classes that boy. He drew the trichuris ova (which was supposed to look barrel-like) like a sausage!!! LOL and then, it became a flying saucer....
HAHAHAHHAHA!!
Oh oh oh! and today, is one day the 15 of us shall remember. Those in Fam Med now, you have to know what i mean really. Today in history, is a Oh My God day. LOL
Enough of laughing. I have to get back to my work. Sigh! Time flies. It really does *sinks to the back of my chair*
Toodles!
March 19, 2009
CFCS!
From wards to klinik kesihatan, to and fro, up and down the stairs for almost 10 times, being tired from head to toe, exhausted and on the brink of giving up; that explains how my day was. I think the three of us have this really bad luck going on honestly. Every other people have found their patient and we're still going back and forth.
It isn't all that difficult to get one ideal patient that i can follow up on for 2 years, or is it??!!
This whole thing is mentally damaging to us and i swear Kah Weng and i look schizophrenic or psychotic today. Kim Long just looks..........dead. LOL
HELPPPPPP!!!! anyone, everyone, please pray for me!!!!!
It isn't all that difficult to get one ideal patient that i can follow up on for 2 years, or is it??!!
This whole thing is mentally damaging to us and i swear Kah Weng and i look schizophrenic or psychotic today. Kim Long just looks..........dead. LOL
HELPPPPPP!!!! anyone, everyone, please pray for me!!!!!
March 18, 2009
When The Going Gets Tough
To all my faithful readers (if there are any at all), i am utterly sorry for being missing in action for almost a month already. Life has gotten tougher, nobody said it was ever easy anyway. And i have currently moved out of KL, although occasionally i tend to check into free rooms in Country Heights Kajang or Bukit OUG Condominium =D. I am now officially in Seremban. Yes, that god forsaken place in this god forsaken country. The holidays have ended about 3 weeks ago, and i really should be all geared up and feeling much more enthusiastic than i am right now because clinical phase is supposed to be one of those really wonderful and exciting years in your medical student days. Unfortunately, i am feeling neither of that and i'm still trap in my life-at-home-with-absolute-freedom-and-nothingness-oh-its-so-much-fun days. Maybe i just wish that i'd be able to bend time and space that i could always go back to when i needn't feel tired and exhausted every other single day.
So Seremban...As if you don't already know, it's a dead town. There aren't any entertainment outlets, no shopping malls and no great places to eat. The only happening and exciting place where you see life and people is Jusco which is like 25 mins from where i stay. I am not joking. There are only 3 cinemas, one GSC in a terrible building you wouldn't even bother visiting, one MBO with only 4 ppl at one time in the theatre and another GSC in Jusco and ALL of them air movies like Sayang, Jin Cinta (or whatever shit), Sex Drive, Dragonball, Eden Lake, Watchmen and some other horrendous malay movie. Yes, there aren't any Slumdog Millionaire or Marley and Me or Jonas Brothers or Tale of Despereaux or all other hit movies in town now. I am deeply saddened.
My house currently is a double storey, rental is cheap, it's next to Ho Wai's, Ming Hui's and Lip Jeen's and 1 minute away from Yilin, Pei, Kah Weng and Geng Yi. There are roaches, lizards and ants and mosquitoes everywhere. And a moronic dog that rummages our garbage chute. Great. The roach gave me one horrible sleepness night one of the days. From then on, i swear to god i'd never open my window and the door is closed 24/7, i bought doorsealers, roach and lizard traps, 2 sprays and i said to myself that i'd rather die of suffocation than have roaches in my room ever again. SWEAR!!!
And yes, i do have a car now. It's my be-earlied birthday gift from mum, my orange little myvi =) Stop envying me and the fact that it's an auto with a power steering *grins*. And and and, i drive with absolute grace and have never misstep on the accelerator instead of the breaks (i have once at home, but never to the extend of hitting any cars, aherm you know who you are). Speaking of which, seremban drivers are rude, impatient and unethical. And we call Penang drivers mad. Look at the mad ones now.
Orientation was boring, if not for the fact that we have an orientation night which was ok. First week of Family Medicine and we're already feeling bored and tired for no reasons. I look at those who're first posted in Surgery and Internal Med and of course i get freaked out cos they're always stressed, always pressing for time, always busy with wards and TBLs and always feeling terrified. I'm glad me and Lams got Fam Med as our first posting because at least i'd have some time to adjust to this terribly humid place with no life and whatsoever.
Kim Long, Kah Weng and i were looking for our CFCS patients yesterday, and one of our patient had 3 grandchildren with him. They kissed my cheek goodbye! =D That, completely made my day. We're still looking for a really suitable patient and unfortunately luck isn't on our side yet. We only have tomorrow left. Sigh. And i have my research project which i need to figure out. Tired!!!
You know, i think they're right. The patients are the ones that will make our day a little more bearable and a little more fulfilling. I'm looking forward to when my patient comes up to me and says "thank you, doc". Of course, that is if i ever make it through my final 2.5 years here. I'm already half way there. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
So Seremban...As if you don't already know, it's a dead town. There aren't any entertainment outlets, no shopping malls and no great places to eat. The only happening and exciting place where you see life and people is Jusco which is like 25 mins from where i stay. I am not joking. There are only 3 cinemas, one GSC in a terrible building you wouldn't even bother visiting, one MBO with only 4 ppl at one time in the theatre and another GSC in Jusco and ALL of them air movies like Sayang, Jin Cinta (or whatever shit), Sex Drive, Dragonball, Eden Lake, Watchmen and some other horrendous malay movie. Yes, there aren't any Slumdog Millionaire or Marley and Me or Jonas Brothers or Tale of Despereaux or all other hit movies in town now. I am deeply saddened.
My house currently is a double storey, rental is cheap, it's next to Ho Wai's, Ming Hui's and Lip Jeen's and 1 minute away from Yilin, Pei, Kah Weng and Geng Yi. There are roaches, lizards and ants and mosquitoes everywhere. And a moronic dog that rummages our garbage chute. Great. The roach gave me one horrible sleepness night one of the days. From then on, i swear to god i'd never open my window and the door is closed 24/7, i bought doorsealers, roach and lizard traps, 2 sprays and i said to myself that i'd rather die of suffocation than have roaches in my room ever again. SWEAR!!!
And yes, i do have a car now. It's my be-earlied birthday gift from mum, my orange little myvi =) Stop envying me and the fact that it's an auto with a power steering *grins*. And and and, i drive with absolute grace and have never misstep on the accelerator instead of the breaks (i have once at home, but never to the extend of hitting any cars, aherm you know who you are). Speaking of which, seremban drivers are rude, impatient and unethical. And we call Penang drivers mad. Look at the mad ones now.
Orientation was boring, if not for the fact that we have an orientation night which was ok. First week of Family Medicine and we're already feeling bored and tired for no reasons. I look at those who're first posted in Surgery and Internal Med and of course i get freaked out cos they're always stressed, always pressing for time, always busy with wards and TBLs and always feeling terrified. I'm glad me and Lams got Fam Med as our first posting because at least i'd have some time to adjust to this terribly humid place with no life and whatsoever.
Kim Long, Kah Weng and i were looking for our CFCS patients yesterday, and one of our patient had 3 grandchildren with him. They kissed my cheek goodbye! =D That, completely made my day. We're still looking for a really suitable patient and unfortunately luck isn't on our side yet. We only have tomorrow left. Sigh. And i have my research project which i need to figure out. Tired!!!
You know, i think they're right. The patients are the ones that will make our day a little more bearable and a little more fulfilling. I'm looking forward to when my patient comes up to me and says "thank you, doc". Of course, that is if i ever make it through my final 2.5 years here. I'm already half way there. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
February 24, 2009
Favourite Oscar moments =)
Of course it had to be when Robert Pattinson was on the red carpet and when he presented with Amanda Seyfried. LOL. Mich and i were messaging each other in the morning of the Oscar day, both gasping for air and melting when we saw him. Sigh. I want a man like that :)
Hugh Jackman's opening was great. He really is such a talented guy! Singing, dancing, acting and all, he nailed it! =) Love wolverine!! Definitely worth the title "sexiest man alive".
This is a video of Kunio Kato, who won best animated short film. It is hilarious. Completely hilarious!! I almost peed in my pants i swear. LOL. (i should be less disgusting too LOL)
Kate Winslet deserves every bit of that award.
From Titanic,
To this,
She is definitely one of the best actresses i've seen so far. Loved her ever since Titanic =) I cried like an emo kid again. I have no clue why. Sigh.
Of course, Meryl Streep is a legend. Period.
Changeling is actually pretty good. Watched it a few days ago and i am actually surprised at how much i really liked it. However, Jolie's acting was just okkk. Maybe the Oscar next year. LOL.
I watched Rachel Getting Married too. And i HATED it. I have never hated an Anne Hathaway movie, but this is one movie that i really dislike. I slept throughout most parts. It is utterly terrible. I'd rather she do Brokeback Mountain all over again. Tsk.
Heath Ledger, I LOVE YOU!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Hugh Jackman's opening was great. He really is such a talented guy! Singing, dancing, acting and all, he nailed it! =) Love wolverine!! Definitely worth the title "sexiest man alive".
This is a video of Kunio Kato, who won best animated short film. It is hilarious. Completely hilarious!! I almost peed in my pants i swear. LOL. (i should be less disgusting too LOL)
Kate Winslet deserves every bit of that award.
From Titanic,
To this,
She is definitely one of the best actresses i've seen so far. Loved her ever since Titanic =) I cried like an emo kid again. I have no clue why. Sigh.
Of course, Meryl Streep is a legend. Period.
Changeling is actually pretty good. Watched it a few days ago and i am actually surprised at how much i really liked it. However, Jolie's acting was just okkk. Maybe the Oscar next year. LOL.
I watched Rachel Getting Married too. And i HATED it. I have never hated an Anne Hathaway movie, but this is one movie that i really dislike. I slept throughout most parts. It is utterly terrible. I'd rather she do Brokeback Mountain all over again. Tsk.
Heath Ledger, I LOVE YOU!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥
February 19, 2009
A Little More
Mich's visit here was so much of fun! We were both looking forward to it for such a long time and it finally came true =) Even getting the hotels for her parents were exciting! and i swear i couldn't sleep the night before. I mean seriously, it feels like Edward's coming to town and i'm getting all restless and excited and all those palpitations (gasp!) and those fluttering heart sounds! LOL Of course we're both straight (like duh) but ive been missing her so much since the end of our bukit jalil days and now we can finally, properly, catch up with each other!
Day 1: I took her for chee cheong fun (pg's version. kl's suck) and naturally, she loved it. Who wouldn't? Steamboat for dinner was great. My favourite place for a steamboat like since forever! And i'm glad she and her parents loved it =) We were supposed to have supper after that, but uhm..nevermind. And since we were bloated, we decided to head home and watch some tv. Mulan!! LOL =D Funny how we both really love mulan and never get tired of it even though it was like the 100001th time we were watching it on Disney.
Day 2: Dim sum in the morning! I have this picture of her at the dim sum place but she already killed me for it for posting it up on facebook, so i shall reserve them here. Go check my facebook!!!! ahaha! And then, Gossip Girl came into the picture. More like it came into my life. Mich brought this whole stack of GG Season 1 to watch with me and yeah, i'm like some GG addict now. Tsk! How am i supposed to catch up with it once im in seremban??!!! GG reviews and updates in the next post (this is supposed to be about the trip).
And then of course one would have to have a laksa in penang =) and pancake! (ban/man chang kuih in hokkien)..yummy!! Then headed off to buy mich's shoes in Prangin mall (she bought TWO, that woman!) and then tonnes of DVDs!! (twilight isn't out yet sobs) and she bought GG season 2. Great. I just hate how much i love GG. GRRrrr..
We drove to EnO Hotel after that. The back of the hotel has this absurdly beautiful scenery. The sea front, the wonderful garden and the hotel itself looks exceptionally pretty with its colonial looks and really antique furnishings. Love it to bits. Both our weddings will be there. Definitely.
What's a Valentine's day without a date right. Whoever says that it has to be the opposite sex? And never in my 20 years here on earth have i thought that it was really such a special day. I mean sure, it is some occasion. I just never thought it is that huge that all restaurants or any other dining places were gonna be fully booked! Poor mummy had to call each and every restaurant we could think of to try and get a place for us both. So we finally got Mizi's and it was definitely one night to remember (aherm, mich??). There were this 2 really good looking white guys just next to our table, and they kept looking at us (of course its only mich) the moment we entered the restaurant. Sigh. Melting so much!! ♥ ♥ ♥
Wanted to go gurney after that for a walk but traffic was really slow there (more like stagnant). So we went to marina's. Great, great view too. Then we spent the whole night, plus morning, watching GG =D LOL
Day 3: Had brunch at Carnation bak kut teh at Gurney. Oh, i forgot to mention GG in the morning (again!). It is insane. Totally.
3 days just flew by. Sent mich off and here i am, alone again. Sigh.
Depression is setting in already. I hate to count the number of days left to the end of freedom, to the end of my fantastic time at home. I hate to even think of it. I know i don't really have much of a choice. I just hope i could have a little bit more of time here. Just a little more...
Day 1: I took her for chee cheong fun (pg's version. kl's suck) and naturally, she loved it. Who wouldn't? Steamboat for dinner was great. My favourite place for a steamboat like since forever! And i'm glad she and her parents loved it =) We were supposed to have supper after that, but uhm..nevermind. And since we were bloated, we decided to head home and watch some tv. Mulan!! LOL =D Funny how we both really love mulan and never get tired of it even though it was like the 100001th time we were watching it on Disney.
Day 2: Dim sum in the morning! I have this picture of her at the dim sum place but she already killed me for it for posting it up on facebook, so i shall reserve them here. Go check my facebook!!!! ahaha! And then, Gossip Girl came into the picture. More like it came into my life. Mich brought this whole stack of GG Season 1 to watch with me and yeah, i'm like some GG addict now. Tsk! How am i supposed to catch up with it once im in seremban??!!! GG reviews and updates in the next post (this is supposed to be about the trip).
And then of course one would have to have a laksa in penang =) and pancake! (ban/man chang kuih in hokkien)..yummy!! Then headed off to buy mich's shoes in Prangin mall (she bought TWO, that woman!) and then tonnes of DVDs!! (twilight isn't out yet sobs) and she bought GG season 2. Great. I just hate how much i love GG. GRRrrr..We drove to EnO Hotel after that. The back of the hotel has this absurdly beautiful scenery. The sea front, the wonderful garden and the hotel itself looks exceptionally pretty with its colonial looks and really antique furnishings. Love it to bits. Both our weddings will be there. Definitely.
What's a Valentine's day without a date right. Whoever says that it has to be the opposite sex? And never in my 20 years here on earth have i thought that it was really such a special day. I mean sure, it is some occasion. I just never thought it is that huge that all restaurants or any other dining places were gonna be fully booked! Poor mummy had to call each and every restaurant we could think of to try and get a place for us both. So we finally got Mizi's and it was definitely one night to remember (aherm, mich??). There were this 2 really good looking white guys just next to our table, and they kept looking at us (of course its only mich) the moment we entered the restaurant. Sigh. Melting so much!! ♥ ♥ ♥
Wanted to go gurney after that for a walk but traffic was really slow there (more like stagnant). So we went to marina's. Great, great view too. Then we spent the whole night, plus morning, watching GG =D LOL
Day 3: Had brunch at Carnation bak kut teh at Gurney. Oh, i forgot to mention GG in the morning (again!). It is insane. Totally.
3 days just flew by. Sent mich off and here i am, alone again. Sigh. Depression is setting in already. I hate to count the number of days left to the end of freedom, to the end of my fantastic time at home. I hate to even think of it. I know i don't really have much of a choice. I just hope i could have a little bit more of time here. Just a little more...
February 13, 2009
Visitor :)
Michelle is coming to Penang now!! GASP!! I am so excited!
Great. The unit upstairs have to start their renovations today. Great. Just great.
Great. The unit upstairs have to start their renovations today. Great. Just great.
February 11, 2009
Happiness
Yes, i am back. After 2 weeks of being just plain busy preparing for CNY (i cleaned my whole house all by myself mind you), and immersing myself in the much anticipated oh-my-god-i'm-free-of-exams CNY celebration, collecting ang pows which are decreasing in number year by year (just because i'm no longer a kid), visiting relatives and friends and spending time with them, playing mahjong! (gasp i think i might be addicted to it), watching guilt-free tv and throwing myself at a never-ending supply of food that came my way at each and every turn. It was really busy and i hardly got enough of sleep each day! But behind all that sleep deprivation and stomachache from eating too much, i loved every moment of it. I don't know if it would be the same next year. I don't know if my schedule will unable me to come home. I don't know if i'd be spending it alone and away. I don't know if i'd be missing all the fun at home. And so i knew i had to appreciate every moment of it this year.
Let the pictures do their talking. All the morning dim sum, and the steamboats, and the lunch and dinners..=D
2nd day of cny. Dim sum with the whole family.
Lunch with my besties: Mei, Catherine and Diana (below)
Steamboat with the whole CLS gang. Loved it!
2 weeks in just a blink of an eye. I would've want to relive it again. Sigh.
Guess what. I used my ang pow money to buy my 4 twilight books! GASP!
Eclipse and Breaking Dawn were practically out of stock. I mean seriously?! At when i am in a dire need of it?! The whole of Penang was practically without those two. Especially after reading New Moon, i remember telling Mich how obsessed i am with it, how depressed!! And how suicidal i was feeling after the 2nd and to top it off, i couldn't lay my hands on any of the 3rd and 4th because they were out of stock and it would apparently, only come in in 2/3 weeks time. Man that's a long time. Long enough to tempt me to jump off my building. Long enough to drive me insane! But, they say God works in miraculous ways. Mich got MPH midvalley to courier the two final books all the way here to Gurney MPH !!! I can never thank you enough darling. I love you! I'd definitely do the same for you if things turned out to be the opposite. You don't even have to ask. =) It was funny how she got all excited about me getting my books as well and the insane anxiety that attacked me at that time! I swear i could just die, literally.
I got my books after 4 days! And i finished them already! They are just brilliant. Absolutely breath-taking. Exceptionally good. I can literally feel them you know. And it made me cry so much. Edward is every girl's fantasy. He is what every guy should become. If you haven't seen the Edward groups in Facebook, you really should check them out. There's this one that goes "Because i read Twilight, i have unrealistic expectations in men" LOL. Mich and i were talking about how depressing the whole saga made us. Like if there is an Edward out there for the two of us. No we're not sharing an Edward but two Edwards for each of us. LOL. We can only hope.I can't wait for all movies to come out!!
I can't live in a world where you don't exist.
Let the pictures do their talking. All the morning dim sum, and the steamboats, and the lunch and dinners..=D
2nd day of cny. Dim sum with the whole family. 
Lunch with my besties: Mei, Catherine and Diana (below)
Steamboat with the whole CLS gang. Loved it!2 weeks in just a blink of an eye. I would've want to relive it again. Sigh.
Guess what. I used my ang pow money to buy my 4 twilight books! GASP!
Eclipse and Breaking Dawn were practically out of stock. I mean seriously?! At when i am in a dire need of it?! The whole of Penang was practically without those two. Especially after reading New Moon, i remember telling Mich how obsessed i am with it, how depressed!! And how suicidal i was feeling after the 2nd and to top it off, i couldn't lay my hands on any of the 3rd and 4th because they were out of stock and it would apparently, only come in in 2/3 weeks time. Man that's a long time. Long enough to tempt me to jump off my building. Long enough to drive me insane! But, they say God works in miraculous ways. Mich got MPH midvalley to courier the two final books all the way here to Gurney MPH !!! I can never thank you enough darling. I love you! I'd definitely do the same for you if things turned out to be the opposite. You don't even have to ask. =) It was funny how she got all excited about me getting my books as well and the insane anxiety that attacked me at that time! I swear i could just die, literally.
I got my books after 4 days! And i finished them already! They are just brilliant. Absolutely breath-taking. Exceptionally good. I can literally feel them you know. And it made me cry so much. Edward is every girl's fantasy. He is what every guy should become. If you haven't seen the Edward groups in Facebook, you really should check them out. There's this one that goes "Because i read Twilight, i have unrealistic expectations in men" LOL. Mich and i were talking about how depressing the whole saga made us. Like if there is an Edward out there for the two of us. No we're not sharing an Edward but two Edwards for each of us. LOL. We can only hope.I can't wait for all movies to come out!!
I can't live in a world where you don't exist.
January 22, 2009
Incomprehensible
Firstly, ballet turned out fine yesterday. So much for the adrenaline rush. LOL. Then again, it was just Annabelle. I'm sure if it was Teacher Priscilla, i'd be dead by now. Yesterday's class reminded me a lot of our old times in the grades. All the fun, jokes, and the silly little things that we do like rolling our eyes over some lame girl in class (haha, that was funny. don't think she ever got it). But there was one point when Teacher Annabelle lifted my leg to almost 150 degrees, i swear i thought my leg would break. Haha although it didn't at that time, they're both completely sore now. I can't even walk properly. tsk!
Enough about ballet. Today didn't go that well. Dad woke me up at 825 am. 825am. 825 am. On a non-schooling day. I mean seriously. Fine, we were supposed to pick mum up for breakfast. Of course i was a bit cranky, who wouldn't be?! Then about an hour ago, mum yelled at me while i was driving for NO APPARENT REASON. Really, it's a long story. And she was yelling at how fast i was speeding and guess what, i was only going at 40km/hour. 40 40 40 40 40 40 40. It wasnt even 400. Please, somebody, anybody, tell me 40 is fast, and i swear i will personally slit your throat and cut you into pieces and roll a car over you. The funny thing is, i came back and talked to diana and sooi phing about it, instead they both told me they're in the exact same situation as i am. LOL. What is wrong with parents?!
I never understood parents. Maybe i thought i did. Now i don't think i do. I hate it when they don't practice what they preach. I hate it when they never admit they're wrong. I hate it when they don't say "sorry" even though they know they're wrong. They're always right. We're always wrong. Somehow, they just have something to say about the things that we do. We're no perfect beings. We're just humans. I can't be who you want me to be. I am me. I am myself. I am not you. I can't think like you. I can't speak like you. I am just not you!!! I'm not the one who always thinks i'm right. I'm always the one that says "sorry" even when i don't think i'm wrong. As much as i had to admit it, i feel like i'm just saying it for the sake of saying it. Sigh There are times when i wished i didn't have to come back. Don't get me wrong. I am grateful for the things i have. I am grateful for having my parents. It is just little things like these that makes me think twice.
Enough about ballet. Today didn't go that well. Dad woke me up at 825 am. 825am. 825 am. On a non-schooling day. I mean seriously. Fine, we were supposed to pick mum up for breakfast. Of course i was a bit cranky, who wouldn't be?! Then about an hour ago, mum yelled at me while i was driving for NO APPARENT REASON. Really, it's a long story. And she was yelling at how fast i was speeding and guess what, i was only going at 40km/hour. 40 40 40 40 40 40 40. It wasnt even 400. Please, somebody, anybody, tell me 40 is fast, and i swear i will personally slit your throat and cut you into pieces and roll a car over you. The funny thing is, i came back and talked to diana and sooi phing about it, instead they both told me they're in the exact same situation as i am. LOL. What is wrong with parents?!
I never understood parents. Maybe i thought i did. Now i don't think i do. I hate it when they don't practice what they preach. I hate it when they never admit they're wrong. I hate it when they don't say "sorry" even though they know they're wrong. They're always right. We're always wrong. Somehow, they just have something to say about the things that we do. We're no perfect beings. We're just humans. I can't be who you want me to be. I am me. I am myself. I am not you. I can't think like you. I can't speak like you. I am just not you!!! I'm not the one who always thinks i'm right. I'm always the one that says "sorry" even when i don't think i'm wrong. As much as i had to admit it, i feel like i'm just saying it for the sake of saying it. Sigh There are times when i wished i didn't have to come back. Don't get me wrong. I am grateful for the things i have. I am grateful for having my parents. It is just little things like these that makes me think twice.
January 21, 2009
Ballet Ballet Ballet
Oh god..i'm going to ballet in half an hour's time. I am definitely getting the chills. Having been absent for almost one and a half years is definitely no good for the legs, for the body, for the arms and for the nerves!! Thank god it's only Teacher Annabelle today. Please let her be kind =)
January 16, 2009
Blessed :)
OMG OMG OMG i passed. Thank god. I passed. Give me a moment..
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
And I Pray...
I have never, ever, EVER been that lucky person to win a contest or so. Even in lucky draws. Let's just say luck has never been on my side.
But I won this! OMG OMG OMG i need a breather! Thanks to The Star and the AMBP :) I know it's nothing too great to shout about but it's just the fact that it's the first time i ever won anything out of a contest and it feels great (my aunt was so annoyed at me jumping up and down right at her face LOL)
Today's the day. I hope i pass. I hope everyone pass. No tears. Just smiles and laughter. Please god. And i pray....
But I won this! OMG OMG OMG i need a breather! Thanks to The Star and the AMBP :) I know it's nothing too great to shout about but it's just the fact that it's the first time i ever won anything out of a contest and it feels great (my aunt was so annoyed at me jumping up and down right at her face LOL)
Today's the day. I hope i pass. I hope everyone pass. No tears. Just smiles and laughter. Please god. And i pray....
January 14, 2009
Pain In The Head
I have never, in my entire 20 years, seen or come across anyone that is so calculative and meticulous right up to the very last cent in their stinking pockets. I mean if we were talking about a hundred bucks or more, thousands and millions, then i'd be burning your ass everyday to get you to return me my money. No, this post is not about people owing me money, neither do i owe anyone money. On my part, i'm rather particular about returning someone's cash after i've borrowed it because i just don't like the fact that i'm using someone else's cash and it just keeps running back and forth at the back of my head. But that's just me. I thought i've had enough of stingy, selfish and meticulous people in my life for the past two years and i was glad that it was gonna be the last that i'd see of her/him. Then again, i guess i was wrong. I just don't know why shitty things like this happen to me. EVERYTIME. I wonder if i have this tendency of attracting negative energy and negative people to myself. Seriously, just cut me some slack. I've had enough of thinking to do and i really don't need you to complicate it for me. Technically, you are right. But there are certain times in life where there is no need to apply the exact right thing to do if it was only going to hurt everyone else. I'm not sure if you've heard of this word "COMPROMISE"? Yeah, you better damn do now. Go get a dictionary. I have an Oxford if you need one. Seriously.
Anyways, part of me is glad that things have turned out the way they are now. Not all of it, but some. Definitely a lesson worth learning. I just hope that the new year will turn out better than it is now. Oh, i'm not sure if you peeps have noticed.
I LOVE TRAVIS!!!!!!!!! =D WE THE KINGS ROCKS!!
Anyways, part of me is glad that things have turned out the way they are now. Not all of it, but some. Definitely a lesson worth learning. I just hope that the new year will turn out better than it is now. Oh, i'm not sure if you peeps have noticed.
I LOVE TRAVIS!!!!!!!!! =D WE THE KINGS ROCKS!!
January 13, 2009
Another Day, Another Beginning
I never thought that this day would ever arrive. It seemed like it was taking an eternity and it was far from being near. I still remember the days when i'd complain EVERYDAY to mich on the phone about how this is really taking a toll on all of us (or maybe it's just us both) and how the first thing that comes into my mind every morning i wake up is how many sets of notes i need to cover for the day and how much i can recall what i studied the night before. It really is that pathetic and it seemed as though this madness was never gonna end. Don't even begin asking me how the papers turned out because i think alot would agree with me that they caught us at where we least expected it.
So, here it is. The end of Phase I, the start of another new chapter. Apart from praying hard everyday and hoping and hoping everyone of us pass the papers (just a pass would suffice, really!!), i feel that bit of sadness in me to see those people that i've grown accustomed to meeting everyday, leave. I wish each and everyone of you all the success you can get and all the best in all that you do. I'm sure our paths would cross again someday soon. Mich, we still have 8 more months before you finally take leave, i don't know how many pails i should carry to the airport to fill them with my tears (honestly!) and i don't know what i'd do without you here with me, keeping me sane. I love you! I'm waiting for our date here in Penang and maybe someday (i hope), we'd have our date in Galway.
To be honest, it does feel a little weird now that i don't have to worry about studying. Not that i don't enjoy not thinking about my notes, but it just feels a little off after worrying about them for almost 2 months. I am glad i'm having guilt-free tv now LOL and lots and lots of movies =) More and more day dreaming about how Edward is gonna swoop down on a white unicorn and carry me in his arms and we'd ride off into the endless sunset. And how we'd have lots and lots of little Edwards and Mabels running around the garden (boy, are they a handful to look after?!) and we'd live happily ever after =) sighssssssss...
And oh! Kudos to the convo mag team for the wonderful mag. Loved it =)
That's me and my page mates Huiling (i miss her!), Malini and Mastura. It's funny how Mastura and I both chose ABBA's song as our theme song LOL
This is the one shoe that i really really love which i bought the other day (just before exam) LOL. Yeah couldn't stop my itchy hands =D
This is New Year's Eve with mummy. Very sad one, indeed. Of course i'd still have to smile for the camera LOL
So, here it is. The end of Phase I, the start of another new chapter. Apart from praying hard everyday and hoping and hoping everyone of us pass the papers (just a pass would suffice, really!!), i feel that bit of sadness in me to see those people that i've grown accustomed to meeting everyday, leave. I wish each and everyone of you all the success you can get and all the best in all that you do. I'm sure our paths would cross again someday soon. Mich, we still have 8 more months before you finally take leave, i don't know how many pails i should carry to the airport to fill them with my tears (honestly!) and i don't know what i'd do without you here with me, keeping me sane. I love you! I'm waiting for our date here in Penang and maybe someday (i hope), we'd have our date in Galway.
To be honest, it does feel a little weird now that i don't have to worry about studying. Not that i don't enjoy not thinking about my notes, but it just feels a little off after worrying about them for almost 2 months. I am glad i'm having guilt-free tv now LOL and lots and lots of movies =) More and more day dreaming about how Edward is gonna swoop down on a white unicorn and carry me in his arms and we'd ride off into the endless sunset. And how we'd have lots and lots of little Edwards and Mabels running around the garden (boy, are they a handful to look after?!) and we'd live happily ever after =) sighssssssss...
And oh! Kudos to the convo mag team for the wonderful mag. Loved it =)
That's me and my page mates Huiling (i miss her!), Malini and Mastura. It's funny how Mastura and I both chose ABBA's song as our theme song LOLThis is the one shoe that i really really love which i bought the other day (just before exam) LOL. Yeah couldn't stop my itchy hands =D
This is New Year's Eve with mummy. Very sad one, indeed. Of course i'd still have to smile for the camera LOL
December 22, 2008
Christmas!
Summative is finally over. Not like its the ultimate key to freedom but at least it's one burden off the shoulder. Wouldn't want to mention how it went at all. Then i took two and a half days off from studying. Completely away from the notes and books because i just thought i really needed that.
Stayed over at Mich's place on Sunday and we had so much of fun! I brought my Renal notes over to study together but we ended up watching Bella and Edward's kissing scene on youtube (and i swear to god we both look like we're watching porn in the living room with the parents gone) LOL. It's amazing how time flies when you spend it with people that you really love. Sigh. Then, we brought out her christmas tree and we decorated it!!! =D So proud of us both! The pics are not up yet, soon. Damn funny lah the both of us. And pretty retarded too.
I can't wait to go home this Wednesday already! It's christmas eve! One year gone. And again. Can't wait to see mom and dad, can't wait to see two precious, new things that i own now which is waiting for me at home, can't wait for the christmas dinner, can't wait to be back just where i belong! =)
If i could write to Santa and of course, if that cute little old man truly does exist *grins*, i'd ask him to :
1. let me pass my eos 5
2. let Mich, Surin and the rest of the batch pass too
3. keep my family safe, happy, and healthy
4. get Edward to bite me
5. get Edward to steal me away and ride with me, off into the sunset in that charming white horse!
Happy holidays everyone and merry christmas! =)
Stayed over at Mich's place on Sunday and we had so much of fun! I brought my Renal notes over to study together but we ended up watching Bella and Edward's kissing scene on youtube (and i swear to god we both look like we're watching porn in the living room with the parents gone) LOL. It's amazing how time flies when you spend it with people that you really love. Sigh. Then, we brought out her christmas tree and we decorated it!!! =D So proud of us both! The pics are not up yet, soon. Damn funny lah the both of us. And pretty retarded too.
I can't wait to go home this Wednesday already! It's christmas eve! One year gone. And again. Can't wait to see mom and dad, can't wait to see two precious, new things that i own now which is waiting for me at home, can't wait for the christmas dinner, can't wait to be back just where i belong! =)
If i could write to Santa and of course, if that cute little old man truly does exist *grins*, i'd ask him to :
1. let me pass my eos 5
2. let Mich, Surin and the rest of the batch pass too
3. keep my family safe, happy, and healthy
4. get Edward to bite me
5. get Edward to steal me away and ride with me, off into the sunset in that charming white horse!
Happy holidays everyone and merry christmas! =)
December 19, 2008
Tagged by Patsy
Rules and Regulations...
1. Do all the tags and do not copy the answers.
2. Tag 10 people before you do the tag.
3. Who I tag...
- Hui Fang
- Siao Wei
- Joon Heng
- Swee Leen
- C Mei
- Kelly
- Siu Yun
- Denise
- Elaine Chee
- Ivan
How you know 1?- Hui Fang
We share the same music teacher for years and years!
What would you do if you never meet 2?- Siao Wei
I'd die in ballet and i'd miss all the silly things we say and do =)
What would u do if 3 & 4 dated u? -Joon Heng and Swee Leen
*paused* erm it'd be fine with Joon but Swee Leen??!! Teong Rhen would chop me into pieces!
Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?- C Mei and Kelly
Yeahhh put them together and you shall have a food party every other day seriously. but i think they'd make a good couple. LOL kelly, papa r u reading this?!
Do u think 7 is attractive? - Siu Yun
She's got this really cute smile =)
Do u know anything about 8’s family?- Denise
Actually, i don't. LOL Sorry lahh denise! Like we only meet in ballets =(
Tell me something about 9. - Elaine Chee
This woman is just stunningly pretty (don't kembang) and aherm, i just found out one hot news about her recently. Ask me if you wanna know or just ask her *grins*
What language does 2 speaks? - Siao Wei
English, Mandarin, Hokkien, Canton (slightly i think) and some weird, unearthly language LOL
Who is 3 going out with? - Joon Heng
Joon! who are you goin out with?! Bella's off limits LOL
How old is 4? - Swee Leen
21 =D
When was the last time u talked to 5? - C Mei
As in face to face, that would be since.....July? At times square. But we've been connecting through the msn, blog etc etc
Who is 6's favorite singer? - Kelly
mmmmmm...i don't know =(
Would you date 7 ? - Siu Yun
Yeah, when i have balls below LOLLLL
Is 8 single? - Denise
Maybe, maybe not
What is 9 last name? - Elaine Chee
Chee Sue Ching =)
Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? - Hui Fang
No. She's not Edward. Or Joe. Or Michael. Or David.
Which school does 2 go to? - Siao Wei
PCGHS all the way and now, Uni Melb. Hate her.
What do you like about 3? - Joon Heng
He's a nice guy. Sweet. And likes Twilight too!!!
1. Do all the tags and do not copy the answers.
2. Tag 10 people before you do the tag.
3. Who I tag...
- Hui Fang
- Siao Wei
- Joon Heng
- Swee Leen
- C Mei
- Kelly
- Siu Yun
- Denise
- Elaine Chee
- Ivan
How you know 1?- Hui Fang
We share the same music teacher for years and years!
What would you do if you never meet 2?- Siao Wei
I'd die in ballet and i'd miss all the silly things we say and do =)
What would u do if 3 & 4 dated u? -Joon Heng and Swee Leen
*paused* erm it'd be fine with Joon but Swee Leen??!! Teong Rhen would chop me into pieces!
Would 5 & 6 make a good couple?- C Mei and Kelly
Yeahhh put them together and you shall have a food party every other day seriously. but i think they'd make a good couple. LOL kelly, papa r u reading this?!
Do u think 7 is attractive? - Siu Yun
She's got this really cute smile =)
Do u know anything about 8’s family?- Denise
Actually, i don't. LOL Sorry lahh denise! Like we only meet in ballets =(
Tell me something about 9. - Elaine Chee
This woman is just stunningly pretty (don't kembang) and aherm, i just found out one hot news about her recently. Ask me if you wanna know or just ask her *grins*
What language does 2 speaks? - Siao Wei
English, Mandarin, Hokkien, Canton (slightly i think) and some weird, unearthly language LOL
Who is 3 going out with? - Joon Heng
Joon! who are you goin out with?! Bella's off limits LOL
How old is 4? - Swee Leen
21 =D
When was the last time u talked to 5? - C Mei
As in face to face, that would be since.....July? At times square. But we've been connecting through the msn, blog etc etc
Who is 6's favorite singer? - Kelly
mmmmmm...i don't know =(
Would you date 7 ? - Siu Yun
Yeah, when i have balls below LOLLLL
Is 8 single? - Denise
Maybe, maybe not
What is 9 last name? - Elaine Chee
Chee Sue Ching =)
Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? - Hui Fang
No. She's not Edward. Or Joe. Or Michael. Or David.
Which school does 2 go to? - Siao Wei
PCGHS all the way and now, Uni Melb. Hate her.
What do you like about 3? - Joon Heng
He's a nice guy. Sweet. And likes Twilight too!!!
December 13, 2008
December 7, 2008
Twilight At Last!
Yeah you know it! Mich and I went for Twilight already!
TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.
This post, i dedicate to my beloved Michelle =) Who dragged me out of this notable despair, to her aunt's place for lunch (it felt like i was on the way meeting my future boyfriend's parents seriously), and then telling me we're going for twilight. There was this moment of silence and my heart literally stopped beating. No palpitations. Time froze. (you know like how you watch it in matrix). And then, SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!! Trust me, the look on my face was priceless. And on the way, we both just kept muttering, "omg, i cannot believe we're watching twilight". OMG OMG. Shut up!
It was impossible to take the thought of me going to watch twilight out of my mind. I figured i would never be able to catch in theatres and i've already given up procrastinating and i told myself that i'd just probably have to settle with a pirated dvd copy which i'd buy from midlands and watch it back at home where my dad's stereo isn't all that bad either.
This was a huge, huge, huge surprise. I can never thank you enough Mich. And to your mum and dad =)
Rob Patt's acting skills were a bit off at times. But i don't know who else would be fit enough to play Edward other than him. His looks are just killing. From the moment he came on screen till the end, we both couldn't stop gasping for air. Seriously. My, my, isn't Cam Gigandet (who plays James the tracker) a hotty too? LOL. And Emmett. And Carlisle. Oh my, Carlisle. I suppose Adrian's right afterall. Carlisle is indeed HOT. lol. Then again, you know how when you take a novel and translate it into a movie and the director doesn't exactly follow each and every detail from the book? Yeah, you get a little, just a little disappointed, like you know this part could've been so much better if they just follow the exact plot and all. But overall, i loved it. I don't know bout y'all, but Mich and i went ga-ga.
I'm a happy girl now =) With Edward emotionally by my side, i'm sure i'd pull through life. LOL These are just two pics that i really love. There are MORE. They're in my laptop and i sent them to Mich and she drooled so much that even Tia (her dog) couldn't even drool as much.
Twilight, at last.
TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.TWILIGHT.
This post, i dedicate to my beloved Michelle =) Who dragged me out of this notable despair, to her aunt's place for lunch (it felt like i was on the way meeting my future boyfriend's parents seriously), and then telling me we're going for twilight. There was this moment of silence and my heart literally stopped beating. No palpitations. Time froze. (you know like how you watch it in matrix). And then, SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!! Trust me, the look on my face was priceless. And on the way, we both just kept muttering, "omg, i cannot believe we're watching twilight". OMG OMG. Shut up!
It was impossible to take the thought of me going to watch twilight out of my mind. I figured i would never be able to catch in theatres and i've already given up procrastinating and i told myself that i'd just probably have to settle with a pirated dvd copy which i'd buy from midlands and watch it back at home where my dad's stereo isn't all that bad either.
This was a huge, huge, huge surprise. I can never thank you enough Mich. And to your mum and dad =)
Rob Patt's acting skills were a bit off at times. But i don't know who else would be fit enough to play Edward other than him. His looks are just killing. From the moment he came on screen till the end, we both couldn't stop gasping for air. Seriously. My, my, isn't Cam Gigandet (who plays James the tracker) a hotty too? LOL. And Emmett. And Carlisle. Oh my, Carlisle. I suppose Adrian's right afterall. Carlisle is indeed HOT. lol. Then again, you know how when you take a novel and translate it into a movie and the director doesn't exactly follow each and every detail from the book? Yeah, you get a little, just a little disappointed, like you know this part could've been so much better if they just follow the exact plot and all. But overall, i loved it. I don't know bout y'all, but Mich and i went ga-ga.
I'm a happy girl now =) With Edward emotionally by my side, i'm sure i'd pull through life. LOL These are just two pics that i really love. There are MORE. They're in my laptop and i sent them to Mich and she drooled so much that even Tia (her dog) couldn't even drool as much.
Twilight, at last.
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