A Little Of This And That

It's really weird that when i don't try to come up with a topic here, my ideas keep flooding my brain and compresses onto all my cranial nerves that i'd get all excited and crazy! But now that i'm here, i find it rather difficult to even start a line.

The holidays were of massive fun that i wished it never had to end. I dreaded the very thought of coming back to imu and being thrown back into reality. I mean i miss the company of my friends but the very thought of attending all those terrible lectures (which i usually end up clueless about) and the very fact that eos5 is fast approaching and i still haven't started a single revision on my previous systems yet and a whole lot of new lectures which i still have to catch up with and just great, i have a mock osce coming up soon. I guess i just find it hard to even be human.

Spent so much time at home just being me, just being around mum and dad. I don't think i'd ever want to leave that comfort zone of mine. Although i know it's sooner or later. That, and the fact that penang has so much of food to offer! There wasn't a single moment where i was hungry at all. Guess that explains the weight a little. LOL.

Dinner with my dad's old gang (Uncle Tony, Aunty Joyce, Aaron etc etc) was great as well. I think i really do miss their company. Not that i like being around aunties and uncles but then again, they're a fun bunch of oldies. LOL. My god, Aaron is huge now! Not huge huge, but it's sad to see him being taller than i am now. He used to be this tiny little boy and we'd both have so much fun together! (i'm not a pedophile) I meant fun as in when we were still kids. And he'd always ask why am i that short. Tsk! Gahh, i just missed those good old days. Wished we didn't have to grow up =(

Plus i watched High School Musical 3! *spoiler ahead*!!


Definitely one of my favourite scenes =)

I actually think it's really good. Of course it can't be better than the first. HSM 1 is like THE HSM movie you know. But this i guarantee, is so much better than the second. Definitely. And Kenny Ortega really deserves an applaud for all of this seriously. He's this old man (not really old, but old) who just has so much of this really great dance moves and is constantly bursting with so much of ideas! He choreographed Miley Cyrus's Best Of Both World Tour (not that i'm interested) and all of these HSM movies?! HE'S THE MAN! =D Mich and I couldn't agree more that Zac is hot being shirtless. LOL. You can't control the girl with the raging hormones, can u? =) And the songs in HSM 3 is so much better than the second. My favourite has to be Right Here, Right Now; Can I Have This Dance; Just Wanna Be With You and Scream. Sharpay and Ryan definitely sing better songs here and man do i love Sharpay more =) Chad *nodds head* is really good. Period. Go watch it if you haven't!




It's not easy to be me...

Baby Baby Baby!

Look at my beautiful girl..ain't she cute?! =D It's been 9 months. Like WOW. I love my Cheng Cheng!! =) The second pic however, does look like she's trying to show us the middle finger. LOL Wonder where that gene came from.. ;)

Emo

It started out pretty bad today. The base of the skull is an absolute pathetic subject. Don't remind me of how we dreaded each and every minute of this morning.

And then, Mich, Shelva, Teck Jian and i had this looooong conversation in the library cafe over relationships and girls and boys. In conclusion, i just think boys are idiots.

Then, the printer in the library is just effin annoying. And it partially ruined my already ruined day.

Then, Surin and i were discussing about Seremban. Imagine we'd be there in 4 months time. It's bad enough here in KL, now i have to be in that ulu place. Questions of where to say, what kind of house to stay, who to stay with, this and that...like how we both hope we'd get another not so difficult housemate.

Then, Mich and i had this conversation of how we're both not gonna be with each other soon. Like 3 more months being together and then she's gone. Who am i gonna have boy conversations with, annoying housemate conversations with..how am i gonna bitch about absolutely everything under sun when i used to do this so often with her. And like how we both have such similar thoughts, we say the same things at the same time, we roll our eyes at anything that annoys us and how the M n M would always be together. Sigh. I know i still have Surin and Shelva with me and don't get me wrong but i love them to bits too. It's just that our conversations are different. Like how today Mich and i were talking about getting married and all, how we're both so afraid of what the future holds for us and probably if i told Surin "surin! i think i might runaway the night before my wedding!" and she'd probably go "wtf???!!!!" LOL nolah, she doesn't use the F word, but you get the idea. It's only with Mich that we'd both tell each other our craziest thoughts. Seriously.

Sigh. And i know i'll miss the rest of the batch that'd be going overseas too. Maybe not all. But some.

Isn't scary when you have your whole life laid before you? I am.

I Can Still Recall

I am telling you this three songs are so good. You'd be crazy if you don't agree with me. Yes, i'm still not over with Mamma Mia just yet. That's only because it is definitely one movie that i'd watch again and again and not get tired of it ever, ever, ever! Because it's so MY type of movie you know. And i bet the musical is going to be one hell of a great show as well, if not more. Definitely. Sadly, i don't think i'd be able to make it. One, cos it's too expensive. Two, cos my idiotic finals are approaching. Absolutely hate the idea. But i think i'd settle listening to these three songs. =D




Meryl Streep is just phenomenal in this. Period. Although technology wasn't that advanced when Abba first recorded this, but i still think Meryl did a better job in this than Abba. With all due respect, i think Abba is one of the greatest band alive but Meryl nailed this. So much of feelings and emotion! Like i could just rip my heart out! I could cry all day listening to this. Seriously. A bit of a pitch problems here and there (Randy's style) but nonetheless, a great great great job indeed!



I always say a man who knows how to play the guitar can get any girl he wants. Yes, including me. Colin Firth is smokin hot in this! Damn man. Despite the sad fact that they had to turn him gay in the end (which i was pretty pissed at), i still think he's one of the hottest British actor there is. Pierce Brosnan sucks at singing but I have to say he looks pretty good in this too. Stellan, my octopus or whatever creature he is in Pirates of Caribbean, im sorry he's such a bad singer. Maybe i just can't get his face as the octopus man off my mind. LOL



My all time FAVOURITE Abba song. Period. This is the song that made me want to dance and shake my booty so badly in the theatres. No joke. =D

Mamma mia...Here I Go Again!

30 Minute Vacation

I was in Langkawi last night. I am absolutely telling the truth! The catch is, i only spent 30 minutes there. Guess what. My flight had to be diverted to Langkawi due to the unwelcoming weather here in Penang. I am absolutely pissed! VERY. The uncle next to me couldn't stop shaking his bald head. LOL We were hovering above the air for like 30 minutes while the pilot tried different angles to get into Penang in the stormy, thundery night. Just great. Was supposed to reach home by 8pm but I got home at 11pm. Don't expect me to be all sweet and nice about it. Grrr!

Bloody Tag

Sigh. I do, at times, enjoy watching at how people tag one another. No. I don't secretly wish they'd tag me. But if they did, it would seem rude not to oblige. So anyways..

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?

yes..Joe Jonas of course! =D

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
with Joe..

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
my birthday gifts

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
who doesnt?!

5. WHAT’S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
a year ago LOL

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
clothes (i'm half a shopping queen), shoes, books, sailormoon, westlife

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
imu's pathetic canteen food

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
the eyes

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
sorry, im too indecisive. there are tonnes!

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED?
Convent Light Street

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
"I will follow you..."

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
Gurney or Queensbay, penang rocks!

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
sorry, i'm too pampered

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
no

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
no

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
MYSELF! didn't you all know Joe married me?!

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU’D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
michelle G.

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:?
a week ago

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
McDs.

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
i don't talk to liars

24. CAN YOU COOK?
try me

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
my mum's red bmw 3 series. tell me i'm cool LOL

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
like everyday?

28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
used to hate mushrooms. now i love them. i live for food!

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
i have a wonderful family

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
my height. tell me about it

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
told u i'm pampered

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
harry potter, lotr

34. CAN YOU SING?
try asking my high school mates. they love it when i sing LOL

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
jim brickman's. awesome!!

36. LAST KISS?
my mum

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
i buy them

38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?
handphone

39. FAVORITE vacation spot:
i love traveling to anywhere!

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Laptop.

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
adam sandler

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
wish they die faster

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
with! u idiot

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
ben, patrick, louise, leo, pudding, ted, nemo, shin chan, sparkle, coco, bobby, garfield

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
no. but i'd like to believe they do

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
never. im a perfect citizen

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
both!

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
they give me diarrhoea

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
anyhow!

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
yes

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:
mum

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
danis

56. LAST TEXT RECEIVED?:
shelva

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
5

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
tshirt and shorts

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
I'll be..your crying shoulder I'll be, love's suicide.....

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
any jelly!

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
no

63. CAN YOU SWIM?
no. Joe can save me

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
any flavour!

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
no

66. I LOVE ________
my parents

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
no

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
autumn

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED ?
at lunch

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ?
idiotic 7am

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
the snow!

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
never

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
hammy! lol

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
cool

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
going home, celebrating cousin's birthday, trying out a german restaurant

78. BIRTHDATE
8 july 1988

79. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
Yeah

80. ARE YOU SMILING?:
nope. im about to kill joon heng

81. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
no

82. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
paris

83. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
no

84. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
i have like..........................hundreds? maybe no, Joe is enough =)

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
dont know

86. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
Black

88. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
no

90. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
no

91. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
on level 23

92. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
i dont know

93. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
yes

94. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE IN PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
no

95. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
my chain

96. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
stab myself

97. TAG THREE OTHER PEOPLE

cant i just tag one?!

97 questions. Damn. I tag....hui fang, siao wei, patsy!

2nd Time Around

I am feeling ecstatic! Not because Joe Jonas kissed me. LOL Although I would very much like him to *grins* but because, my cousin sister is pregnant again! AGAIN! Whooohooo! What a whirlwind of events since she got married. Hey, I don't mind having two nieces or one niece one nephew. I already have a niece. And I love her. She is SO SO SO adorable!

I guess my aunt can't get enough of being a grandma just yet. She said "haiya, now so young can give birth, good lah! The more the merrier. After that, just tie it lah!"

Damn funny.

Anyways, i can't wait to see her for chinese new year =)

Down Memory Lane

Music has been part of my life for as long as i can remember. I was only 4 when mum sent me to my first music class and i absolutely enjoyed it to bits. And back then, mum would always tell me that i sound like Bonnie Tyler (she sang total eclipse of the heart just in case you don't know) because my voice was really coarse LOL (of course it isn't so now you idiot. haven't you heard me talk?!)

She bought me my first piano then. I still remember that it was brown and Yamaha of course (my all-time favourite brand). In fact, i attended 2 music classes. One was Yamaha-based, the other was ABRSM. I like how the Yamaha music course would always encourage the freedom of expression in our music, how they'd train us in improvisation skills, transposition, hearing, sight reading and singing but because i'm not a perfect pitch person, my teacher Jasmin could never stop yelling at me LOL And how we'd always get to perform on stages for numerous, various occassions! AB on the other hand, it's good in honing one's playing skills. I hate the scales! All the gruelling practices and finger-aching sessions..oh those insufferable moments!

Then i remember my very first Electone Festival. None, including ourselves, in our wildest dreams, would ever think that we could actually make it. And we did. We did!

We called ourselves CML then cause we were a bunch of idiots who couldn't come up with a better name for our group, other than putting our intials together. Yeah, shoot us.

Then, came Senzation. We didn't win (damn pissed off with all the internal politics) but it was another one of those really great times i'd remember forever. Somebody once said "it isn't about what you get at the end, but it's the journey that you take to get there which is all that really matters".

Finally, my last group Le Fort Vague. Maybe it was our choice of song this time. Sigh. Then again, one can never get enough of music in their life. Nonetheless, i love and miss every single bit of it. From all the practices, to perfecting every part of the piece, to making sure all is well, to dressing up, to making Yap look non-sluggish LOL (that guy has no sense of fashion).

If i had photoshop or something, i would've removed the girl in green. Hate her. We all do. Pink panther.

My point is, I seem to have forgotten how much music means to me and that insane passion that i used to have everytime i played my piano. I seem to be so caught up with everything else like school work, to catching up with my latest drama. And because i'm now away from home, it only means that i have to for go my music lessons and even ballet, the two things that i really love doing. It also means less time for practice, in fact no time at all. Mum bought me a Clavi in KL and of course, i'm absolutely grateful and glad and happy and ecstatic and all nuts about it. The thing is everytime i play, i just feel that sudden emptiness within, like there's something missing. I didn't know what that was until i read what huifang said. That we're only playing the piano because we were afraid we'd forget how to play them. We'd forget how to run our fingers up and down the keyboard, we'd forget what C major sounds like, we'd forget how to do an arpeggios, we'd forget how to sight read, we'd forget how to do a thrill, we'd forget what pianoforte is and we'd even forget how a piano would sound. It is sad, but true. I'm merely playing it for the sake of it. There's no feelings in it, there's no purpose in it, and it lacks that will to improve on each piece. I guess now i know what that missing piece is. Don't get me wrong. I still love my black piano a lot. And i love all the pieces of score sheets that i have.

Reading huifang's blog and i saw that picture of us on the keyboards at EF (although it was a hideous pic of me) and watching Camp Rock made me realize how much i miss it and how much it means to me. It was my best friend throughout my early years and it still is now. Just that maybe i misplaced this best friend of mine at the corner of my cupboard but i found it now =)

And as for ballet, i'm still searching for the answer to my question. Maybe it was never meant to happen. Maybe it wasn't my calling no matter how much i loved it. I still do.

Miss wearing my pointe shoe, my soft pointes, my leotard, and everything in between. The only thing i wouldn't miss is doing pirouettes. Hate it.

Time and tide waits for no man. Time traveling seems impossible. Maybe soon. If only someone had invented a time machine. Wouldn't it be great for all of us?

Cos You Had A Bad Day

Today's a really bad day. I didn't like it AT ALL.

Wish tomorrow would be a better one.

Btw, "Incredible Hulk" is really good. Amazingly good. But I wished Eric Bana had continued playing Bruce Banner. More masculine. Edward Norton's a bit...skinny? LOL