June 26, 2009

A Series of Fortunate and Misfortunate Event(s)

So the week got better towards the end. although i just finished emo-ing. i don't know. i honestly think i have a bipolar disorder. i can't wait to be in psychiatry posting because then i'll find out what other mental problems i have and i'm sure i have a bunch of them.

so anyways, yesterday was probably the best day of the entire week. CP with Dr James is probably like one of the most stress free and fun CPs i've had so far. it's just weird to actually ENJOY a CP. like we could actually admit that we weren't any good at reading an ECG. and that 'ECG made easy' book that was SUPPOSEDLY meant to be easy wasn't so easy afterall *rolls eyes* and he taught us how to read one with such simplicity and in an understandable language (definitely NOT gibberish at all)! remember to always look at the aVR lead first. =)

and then TBL was cancelled. YAHOOO!! =)

went dating with Lams that night. despite dr james telling us "transformers can wait ok", we seemed to have thought otherwise. lol. Shia Labeouf CAN'T WAIT ANYMORE! right, the raging hormones!


so the 2nd installment has definitely lived up to its predecessor. in fact, a lot of other movies with a 2nd installment usually fail to live up to my expectations especially if the 1st was superbly good. it's got a lot of action in it - from the beginning till the end. as usual, Megan Fox is smokin' hot (as Fir puts it lol). and Shia Labeouf is absolutely irresistible! and he is just so good at what he does! so is John Turturo =)

♥♥♥♥ Optimus Prime and Mojo! =) ahaha..


ok. no spoilers. but it is THE best movie of the year so far. we'll see how Harry Potter and New Moon fairs. looks pretty promising from their trailers. but we'll see. =)

and yes!! THE FRAY'S NEVER SAY NEVER IS FEATURED IN THE FILM! (when shia and meg kissed just before he left for college) and i am so proud! one of my fave fray's song to date.

and so this morning, Pik said something like "hmm my friend sent me an sms and said Michael Jackson died".

i said "haha damn bodoh lah. so fake!"

and Lams and Pik gave me that "oh-my-god-you-did-not-just-say-that-mabel" look.

Lams: it is true!!! didn't you hear the radio on the way here Mabel?!

and im like: =S noooo???!! cos i was playing my favourite cd!

Pik: yes. he just passed away. cardiac arrest.

so people, a lesson to learn ----> LISTEN AND PAY ATTENTION TO THE MORNING NEWS!

i remember that guy. the king of pop. my dad ha
d a HUGEEEE collection of his CDs and LDs (laser discs - when dvds and vcds weren't invented just yet).

the 'thriller' MTV still scared the shit out of me everytime i watch it. not that i intentionally watch it but it just kept playing on the tv and on my dad's LD!

i wouldn't say i'm an ardent fan of his. but his songs definitely did leave a mark with me.

i grew up listening to 'heal the world' and 'we are the world'. i sang them for my kindergarten's concert. i practically ADORE it to bits. even now.


and then there was 'you are not alone' from the 'free willy' soundtrack. i absolutely LOVED it. and i will always do. it is probably one of my favourite MJ songs. =) another 'free willy' soundtrack that i love is 'will you be there' and it is BEAUTIFUL.

then there was 'man in the mirror', 'black or white', 'the way you make me feel'. loved all of them since my pre-adolescent days.

and i remembered using this line "if you wanna mak
e the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make that change" in one of my english essays for SPM =)

and then i hated him for all the facial surgeries and that hypoxic looking face of his. he was so much more good looking when he was black.

then came a series of child molesting suits filed against him. all those alleged sodomy and raping and god knows what else he has done and that god forsaken Neverland ranch which spelled B-A-N-K-R-U-P-T-C-Y for him. lol. right, i shan't laugh.

despite all these negativities, he is definitely a legen
d. his songs are great. his 'moonwalk' is the bomb. his dance moves are just incomparable. despite always wearing that same black pants and that white socks and that black shoe and that scrotum-holding dance move. he is the epitome of a successful pop artist/musician. hats off.

his death is a loss for all. a true music artist. an unmatched performer. an icon. a legend. the King of Pop.

rip.


June 23, 2009

So Much Better!

The day was just great. Wonderful. Almost perfect.

Minus the fact that the weather this morning was pretty gloomy and windy that my bed just seemed to be dragging me back to its arms.

Got my results for EOP today.

Prof Yushak didn't fail me!! =D

OMG!

I could just die of MI.

Loved my results all in all except Fam Med MCQ (that bugger)

God must have loved me =)

June 22, 2009

Oh Such Crap!

First day of a new posting

First day of the week

First day after such a blissful holiday which was oh so short lived

First day in oh so scary + psychotic internal med

First day waking up half an hour before class with a 10 minute drive to uni

First day i turned my alarm off and the handphone did not ring after that

First day Willie and i flew (almost) on the highway

First day not having breakfast before class

First day being scared shitless by ho wai

First day presenting the first case of the posting to prof

First day being really REALLY scared shitless

REALLY REALLY REALLY scared shitless!

And so it was a bad bad bad bad BAD BAD way to start a new week and a new posting.

How much more terrible can my luck get.

June 16, 2009

21 Wishes For That 21st Birthday!

1. Westlife Live at Croke Park Stadium DVD
2. The Fray's new album- self titled
3. Westlife and twilight personalized t-shirt
4. Westlife autobiography book
5. Just anything that spells W-E-S-T-L-I-F-E and T-W-I-L-I-G-H-T
6. Ipod (so that i can play tap tap too LOL)
7. That Nichii black dress that i love ("M" size please!)
8. An external hard disk for my zillions of songs and movies in my comp
9. New headphones
10. PS3
11. That braided, gold coloured hairband from Diva
12. That pretty green dress Serena Van Der Woodsen wore for Waldorf Designs
13. All other pretty dresses?
14. All other pretty shoes??
15. All other pretty hairbands???
16. All other pretty accessories????
17. A zillion Wondermilk cupcakes!
18. A zillion Krispy Kremes!!
19. Tubs of Haagen Daz!!!
20. A kiss from EDWARD CULLEN
21. To have a wonderful and memorable time with my family and beloved friends =)

Get your asses up and start working on it people!!! =D

You know i'd love you forever! =)

Oh! and i forgot! Please add to that 21 list of gifts a Rascal Flatts new album too, titled "Unstoppable".

Thank you thank you! You know i'd be forever in your debts =) *kisses*

June 12, 2009

The Heart Knows It Best

Optimism doesn't quite exist in my vocabulary right now.

I could've done so much better.

If only i was given another case rather than just plain, old, simple "acute appendicitis". Right, tell me it's the easiest case you could ever get and that i should be getting an A for it and i swear to god i'd just shoot myself to death.

Even for the theory papers, i know i could've done better. I should've listened to that little voice inside my head and follow my not-so-confident little heart. They're just somehow, always right!

I think Lams is right. I want to pass. But then again, i want to pass comfortably. i don't want to get a C although that it's also like passing but bordernline-ly! =( I just hope it's enough for a B.

Then again, no use crying over spilled milk. Maybe i should've been more focused. maybe i should've mugged more. the word "mug" already annoys the hell out of me.

Maybe it's my short attention span these days. maybe it's the constant distraction here. (like wat??!! distraction in seremban??!!! quote ho wai LOL)

Or just maybe, i'm plain stupid. It's crude and harsh. but then again, i think i might just need to face reality. oh that smack in my face!

i think i just need to suck it up lah. *sigh* and look forward to going home in like an hour??!! LOLLLLL can't wait.

Home cooked food, beloved bed and pink room, beloved LCD tv, beloved astro, beloved couch, beloved aunts and uncles, beloved niece!!, beloved car, beloved home, beloved friends!!! like oh my god i can't wait anymore! and definitely mum and dad, king and queen of my heart =)

HOME SWEET HOME!! =)

SCREW YOU EXAMS!!!

June 5, 2009

The Living And The Dead

Maybe it's my period. Maybe it's the dysmenorrhea. Maybe its the pimple that pops out so annoyingly at every change in my hormonal cycle each month.

I don't feel alive. I don't feel like i'm here. I'm beginning to feel like i'm losing myself in the midst of this fervent heat of worrying but not doing anything about it at all. I can feel the walls closing in on me like a wave of messed up thoughts just suffocating me.

And i'm falling off the edge.

Stoned.