Incomprehensible

Firstly, ballet turned out fine yesterday. So much for the adrenaline rush. LOL. Then again, it was just Annabelle. I'm sure if it was Teacher Priscilla, i'd be dead by now. Yesterday's class reminded me a lot of our old times in the grades. All the fun, jokes, and the silly little things that we do like rolling our eyes over some lame girl in class (haha, that was funny. don't think she ever got it). But there was one point when Teacher Annabelle lifted my leg to almost 150 degrees, i swear i thought my leg would break. Haha although it didn't at that time, they're both completely sore now. I can't even walk properly. tsk!

Enough about ballet. Today didn't go that well. Dad woke me up at 825 am. 825am. 825 am. On a non-schooling day. I mean seriously. Fine, we were supposed to pick mum up for breakfast. Of course i was a bit cranky, who wouldn't be?! Then about an hour ago, mum yelled at me while i was driving for NO APPARENT REASON. Really, it's a long story. And she was yelling at how fast i was speeding and guess what, i was only going at 40km/hour. 40 40 40 40 40 40 40. It wasnt even 400. Please, somebody, anybody, tell me 40 is fast, and i swear i will personally slit your throat and cut you into pieces and roll a car over you. The funny thing is, i came back and talked to diana and sooi phing about it, instead they both told me they're in the exact same situation as i am. LOL. What is wrong with parents?!

I never understood parents. Maybe i thought i did. Now i don't think i do. I hate it when they don't practice what they preach. I hate it when they never admit they're wrong. I hate it when they don't say "sorry" even though they know they're wrong. They're always right. We're always wrong. Somehow, they just have something to say about the things that we do. We're no perfect beings. We're just humans. I can't be who you want me to be. I am me. I am myself. I am not you. I can't think like you. I can't speak like you. I am just not you!!! I'm not the one who always thinks i'm right. I'm always the one that says "sorry" even when i don't think i'm wrong. As much as i had to admit it, i feel like i'm just saying it for the sake of saying it. Sigh There are times when i wished i didn't have to come back. Don't get me wrong. I am grateful for the things i have. I am grateful for having my parents. It is just little things like these that makes me think twice.

Ballet Ballet Ballet

Oh god..i'm going to ballet in half an hour's time. I am definitely getting the chills. Having been absent for almost one and a half years is definitely no good for the legs, for the body, for the arms and for the nerves!! Thank god it's only Teacher Annabelle today. Please let her be kind =)

Blessed :)

OMG OMG OMG i passed. Thank god. I passed. Give me a moment..

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

And I Pray...

I have never, ever, EVER been that lucky person to win a contest or so. Even in lucky draws. Let's just say luck has never been on my side.

But I won this! OMG OMG OMG i need a breather! Thanks to The Star and the AMBP :) I know it's nothing too great to shout about but it's just the fact that it's the first time i ever won anything out of a contest and it feels great (my aunt was so annoyed at me jumping up and down right at her face LOL)


Today's the day. I hope i pass. I hope everyone pass. No tears. Just smiles and laughter. Please god. And i pray....

Pain In The Head

I have never, in my entire 20 years, seen or come across anyone that is so calculative and meticulous right up to the very last cent in their stinking pockets. I mean if we were talking about a hundred bucks or more, thousands and millions, then i'd be burning your ass everyday to get you to return me my money. No, this post is not about people owing me money, neither do i owe anyone money. On my part, i'm rather particular about returning someone's cash after i've borrowed it because i just don't like the fact that i'm using someone else's cash and it just keeps running back and forth at the back of my head. But that's just me. I thought i've had enough of stingy, selfish and meticulous people in my life for the past two years and i was glad that it was gonna be the last that i'd see of her/him. Then again, i guess i was wrong. I just don't know why shitty things like this happen to me. EVERYTIME. I wonder if i have this tendency of attracting negative energy and negative people to myself. Seriously, just cut me some slack. I've had enough of thinking to do and i really don't need you to complicate it for me. Technically, you are right. But there are certain times in life where there is no need to apply the exact right thing to do if it was only going to hurt everyone else. I'm not sure if you've heard of this word "COMPROMISE"? Yeah, you better damn do now. Go get a dictionary. I have an Oxford if you need one. Seriously.

Anyways, part of me is glad that things have turned out the way they are now. Not all of it, but some. Definitely a lesson worth learning. I just hope that the new year will turn out better than it is now. Oh, i'm not sure if you peeps have noticed.

I LOVE TRAVIS!!!!!!!!! =D WE THE KINGS ROCKS!!

Another Day, Another Beginning

I never thought that this day would ever arrive. It seemed like it was taking an eternity and it was far from being near. I still remember the days when i'd complain EVERYDAY to mich on the phone about how this is really taking a toll on all of us (or maybe it's just us both) and how the first thing that comes into my mind every morning i wake up is how many sets of notes i need to cover for the day and how much i can recall what i studied the night before. It really is that pathetic and it seemed as though this madness was never gonna end. Don't even begin asking me how the papers turned out because i think alot would agree with me that they caught us at where we least expected it.

So, here it is. The end of Phase I, the start of another new chapter. Apart from praying hard everyday and hoping and hoping everyone of us pass the papers (just a pass would suffice, really!!), i feel that bit of sadness in me to see those people that i've grown accustomed to meeting everyday, leave. I wish each and everyone of you all the success you can get and all the best in all that you do. I'm sure our paths would cross again someday soon. Mich, we still have 8 more months before you finally take leave, i don't know how many pails i should carry to the airport to fill them with my tears (honestly!) and i don't know what i'd do without you here with me, keeping me sane. I love you! I'm waiting for our date here in Penang and maybe someday (i hope), we'd have our date in Galway.

To be honest, it does feel a little weird now that i don't have to worry about studying. Not that i don't enjoy not thinking about my notes, but it just feels a little off after worrying about them for almost 2 months. I am glad i'm having guilt-free tv now LOL and lots and lots of movies =) More and more day dreaming about how Edward is gonna swoop down on a white unicorn and carry me in his arms and we'd ride off into the endless sunset. And how we'd have lots and lots of little Edwards and Mabels running around the garden (boy, are they a handful to look after?!) and we'd live happily ever after =) sighssssssss...

And oh! Kudos to the convo mag team for the wonderful mag. Loved it =)

That's me and my page mates Huiling (i miss her!), Malini and Mastura. It's funny how Mastura and I both chose ABBA's song as our theme song LOL

This is the one shoe that i really really love which i bought the other day (just before exam) LOL. Yeah couldn't stop my itchy hands =D


This is New Year's Eve with mummy. Very sad one, indeed. Of course i'd still have to smile for the camera LOL