January 6, 2010

don't. just don't

new year's was less than ordinary. wasn't feeling well. flight delayed to an hour. so freakin tired after class. stomach upset. didn't even feel like putting on that make up for dinner at the hotel. so much for that.

new year's resolution: study harder. procrastination has to end some time soon. visit ireland, london and paris. eat my meals properly and take good care of my stomach. i always say that if i die it would be due to perforated gastric ulcers. i swear.

i don't know. i guess resolutions come along as the year progresses. shrugs.

last night was bad. made me doubt the decisions that i made. i don't usually regret making them. although it is my nature to complain and whine about why is this happening oh my god i shouldn't have done this, i don't usually regret.

should i now?

how do you pick up the old thread of that life when everything you thought you knew isn't exactly all that you know now?

just don't let me be the one. i've been there. and i don't like it. so don't. just don't.

2 comments:

haruka kanata said...

Dear Mabel,

Hey, just to let you know i've been reading your blog and i can more or less empatise with the ups and downs youre going thru.

I duno how i can be of any form of support since we dun really talk, let alone hang out, but I hope I can show you morale support in any way i can.

Please be strong (I know youre strong) To me, youre a very bright person and I know you will excel and succeed in life.

Never lose hope and pls keep up the faith :)

P/S: Don't hesitate to call me( ok, fb lar) if you need a shoulder to cry on k.

Love,
Mich.

Unknown said...

hello michelle!

thanks so much for the encouragement honestly. i'm trying. trying to have faith, keep it and be stronger. and thank you for believing in me :) it means a lot. especially more to hear from someone whom i haven't seen in awhile really!! :) hope you're doing good!

we'll keep in touch girl:)