December 28, 2009

crash and burn

it's funny how the week started so badly. last week i was all positive. positive about christmas. about home. about orthopaedics. about exams. like i keep telling myself i can do all these. i know i can. and i know i will. just somehow, things started to head for the worse.

i have never once felt like this in a long time coming. the last i ever felt this way was when i was in imu bukit jalil. and it wasn't very pleasant because i was crying all the time literally. i was crying before i go to sleep. crying before class starts. crying even during class. and i wished i hadn't set foot into medical school.

this is that one time after a very long while. i wished i didn't have to go back to where i was then ever again. all that working so hard at each step along the way feels like its falling apart at this very moment.

just the other day i was flying back to kl. the captain said that there were some technical errors and they had to fix it before we could take off. and when it did, i wished so badly it would come crashing down and burn. i don't know why. but i wished it were me on those everyday news that we see on television.

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