2012 is coming to an end. 3 more days to embracing the new year. end of the world didn't come at all. not that i was waiting for it to arrive - in fact i was too busy at work it didn't even hit me that 21.12.12 was it. oh wells.

the year had its ups and downs as usual. working in this exceptionally challenging field and hospital was not an easy rat race. one posting after another. one exam after another. still shit in my pants at every end of posting assessment like it was just yesterday i passed my first. was looking forward to my paediatrics posting so much because i thought i might probably just do it (not because i'm of the paediatric age group as well pfft). but it turns out that i didn't quite enjoy the posting as much as i'd wanted to. then again, a lot of people have said that maybe it is just penang gh - like how its a little bit more hostile than other places, and maybe because of its numerous subspecialties. but i don't know, sometimes when i'm oncall, tired, hungry, stinky, and pushed to my limits, i just want to slap that kid for screaming and spurting saliva at me while i'm trying to set their super difficult branulas. give me a break honestly. gahs. then again, loving children and loving the subject - they're completely different. surgical and medical was awesome. big NO to O&G. so, maybe MRCP? :) then do gastro, and do scopes, and earn big bucks and quit and be siu nai nai :)

2012 also began with meeting you. it's going to be 10 months. it wasn't easy for us from the start due to our differences and my utterly difficult mother. for all the things that you've done for me, for all the sacrifices you've made - i cannot have asked for more. i never thought that i was worth anyone's fight, but you have brought so much happyness into my life than i can ever imagine. for all the late night/wee hours of the morning dinner/suppers, for the postcall breakfasts, for all the crazy stunts and activities we did together, for staying home just doing nothing. but most of all, for the times you stood by me, believed in me, and loved me. forever isn't enough for me to be with you, baby. we'll get there someday. and someday, my mum will see us the way i see us. i can almost see it. i love you :)

2013, bring it on. i won't give up. i don't exactly have new year resolutions to make. i mean, it comes and goes. i'll be done with housemanship by september 2013. by then, i'll try my best to figure out what i'd want to do in life. and we'll take it from there. and to my fellow comrades, we're gonna do this like we did before. RAWR! and to you; my other half, you can do it! we can do it! love you so much i can die.

hello 2013! :)