despite all this, i still miss you. and i still love you.

and that despite the hundreds of people that come into my life everyday, there isnt a day that i don't think about us before i go to bed.

i completely have no idea what's been running on your mind lately and even if i do, i doubt it would make any difference to where we are right now. it's just that it still hurts.

and it hurts a lot.

i wished i wasn't always sappy. i wished i was stronger than this.

gahss. wake up. oncall again tomorrow. life doesnt get any easier. :)

looking forward to another 3 months. and an end of posting holiday to anywhere. 1 month down in medical. RAWRRR.