despite all this, i still miss you. and i still love you.
and that despite the hundreds of people that come into my life everyday, there isnt a day that i don't think about us before i go to bed.
i completely have no idea what's been running on your mind lately and even if i do, i doubt it would make any difference to where we are right now. it's just that it still hurts.
and it hurts a lot.
i wished i wasn't always sappy. i wished i was stronger than this.
gahss. wake up. oncall again tomorrow. life doesnt get any easier. :)
looking forward to another 3 months. and an end of posting holiday to anywhere. 1 month down in medical. RAWRRR.
February 25, 2012
February 6, 2012
surgical posting - checked.
sigh. its been a long journey. well at least it feels so. 4 months. and now into my 5th month working.
surgical has been awesome. minus the tagging part. the shift system was crazy awesome. and ppl were (yes, cocky) but cool. sighs. why did medical have to come.
i hate medical. dont ask me why just because it's medical. bahh! its not fun when you're working with incompetent, bossy, ohimsogreat kinda ppl. irks me to my core!
and tagging happened. sucks. and nephro call coming soon. sucks even more :(
after all this, life goes on. doesnt it always? at times i wished i had the courage to say NO. just to say NO.
what am i doing with my life? what do i want? shucks.
well i guess we all move on. whether we like it or not. sometimes there are things that are just meant or arent meant to be. and every step we take would be a risk to take. i remember telling surin, if we don't take the risks in life, we'd never know where it may lead us. for that spur of a moment i was so proud of myself for having said such a philosophically true phrase. it's always easier said than done. true. but i dont think that theres anything that cant be done as long as we set our minds to it. love isnt everything i guess that's true too. i am trying to move on from you. sure, there are some days where you just come into my head and mess everything up and made me wonder what if we hanged in there. but i don't think there's any turning back from now on.
:)
sigh. its been a long journey. well at least it feels so. 4 months. and now into my 5th month working.
surgical has been awesome. minus the tagging part. the shift system was crazy awesome. and ppl were (yes, cocky) but cool. sighs. why did medical have to come.
i hate medical. dont ask me why just because it's medical. bahh! its not fun when you're working with incompetent, bossy, ohimsogreat kinda ppl. irks me to my core!
and tagging happened. sucks. and nephro call coming soon. sucks even more :(
after all this, life goes on. doesnt it always? at times i wished i had the courage to say NO. just to say NO.
what am i doing with my life? what do i want? shucks.
well i guess we all move on. whether we like it or not. sometimes there are things that are just meant or arent meant to be. and every step we take would be a risk to take. i remember telling surin, if we don't take the risks in life, we'd never know where it may lead us. for that spur of a moment i was so proud of myself for having said such a philosophically true phrase. it's always easier said than done. true. but i dont think that theres anything that cant be done as long as we set our minds to it. love isnt everything i guess that's true too. i am trying to move on from you. sure, there are some days where you just come into my head and mess everything up and made me wonder what if we hanged in there. but i don't think there's any turning back from now on.
:)
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