i'm scared.

i don't know if i can bear the consequences of the decision i just made.

why do i do this to myself all the time. why do i need to beat myself up.

i want for us to do this together as much as you do. i dont want to lose you.

but what if this is for the better. what if things are meant to turn out as such.

haven't i already run this through my head a million times.

why am i still at where i stood since forever?