and we battle

this is it. tomorrow it all starts. i don't know if what i'm armed with is sufficient to keep me alive but i sure hope it is.

he said to me "pray, and have faith in God."

i will do that.

good luck everyone. even though i may not like you (with all honesty), but i'd love for all of us to graduate together next year. (gasp, yes)

good night world.

pray for us.

we pray

paediatrics down. obstetrics down. psychiatry down. orthopaedics down. end of postings exams down.

end of semester 7 dawning. semester 7 coming to an end soon.

i don't think i would ever have a life for now. i need to muster all the faith and courage i can get. and then channel it the right way. and NOT by facebooking, blogging, blog hopping, youtubing etc etc.

i will pass. i must pass. i need to pass.

Edinburgh awaits. semester 8 awaits. i will graduate with my batch.

so many things have happened since i last wrote in here. things have resolved abit. i guess it takes time.

more churches are getting attacked. suraus now. tell me about it. i won't be surprise if the Chinese people start to rage when our temples become victims of their foolishly vehement acts.

5 from chung ling high school passed away. i know i don't exactly know these people, but the fact that it's penang we're talking about is part of my concern. anything to do with penang is.

sigh.

feels like all i can do now is to pray everyday.

pray i pass eos 7.

pray my buddies pass eos 7.

pray my whole batch pass eos 7.

pray the boys rest in peace.

pray for a better place in this world.


i will see you in 2 weeks time. toodles.

come home

"come home, come home,
cause i've been waiting for you,
for so long, for so long,
right now there's a war between the vanities,
but all i see is you and me,
and the fight for you is all i've ever known,
so come home.."

brittle

"But i disappear into the person i love. i am the permeable membrane. if i love you, you can have everything. you can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog's money, my dog's time - everything. if i love you, i will carry for you all your pain, i will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), i will protect you from your own insecurity, i will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and i will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. i will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, i will give you a sun check and a rain check. i will give you all this and more...."

The heart is the only broken instrument that works..

don't. just don't

new year's was less than ordinary. wasn't feeling well. flight delayed to an hour. so freakin tired after class. stomach upset. didn't even feel like putting on that make up for dinner at the hotel. so much for that.

new year's resolution: study harder. procrastination has to end some time soon. visit ireland, london and paris. eat my meals properly and take good care of my stomach. i always say that if i die it would be due to perforated gastric ulcers. i swear.

i don't know. i guess resolutions come along as the year progresses. shrugs.

last night was bad. made me doubt the decisions that i made. i don't usually regret making them. although it is my nature to complain and whine about why is this happening oh my god i shouldn't have done this, i don't usually regret.

should i now?

how do you pick up the old thread of that life when everything you thought you knew isn't exactly all that you know now?

just don't let me be the one. i've been there. and i don't like it. so don't. just don't.