lifted

i think i finally feel a lot lighter. less heavy. less burdened.

i didn't think i could ever do it. i didn't think i was ever brave enough to stand up for what i wanted, and what i believed in. and i never dared to stand up for the person i am.

but now i did it. and now i am a lot happier. less whiny. more fun :)

i won't always get it right the first time, as mich says it always. i need to fall before i know where i stand and what i want.

i hope i'm getting there too :)

anyways, there's this empty place in my heart again. sooi phing finally graduated. going back to penang. one less place to stay in kl. sigh. which means less time or none at all in kl. GASP! I WANNA DIE. i miss all the things we did back then when we first started out there. those crazy stuff. and all that shopping and eating and exploring. wished things would be that simple forever.

new moon's coming out tomorrow in malaysia! i hope i get to see it :) here in seremban! god damn it. they better play it or seremban can diieeeee!! growls.

i don't like psychiatry. NOT bcos i feel like i'm part of them. LOL. but because i keep trying to want them be normal. just give me the correct answer god damn it. but that's just the way they are. so i'm still trying to tune in to them :(

going home this thursday :) with pei. looking forward to it. but first, NEW MOOOONNN!!