i think the reason why i am so frustrated at work is how people in this exceptionally dumb department generalizes and judges everyone they come across. what is worse is that they think they're a cut above others (ok, maybe a few cuts above since they've got such big heads) and that we're all like some pieces of scumbags who don't deserve to be doctors.
i think the higher ranks need to realise that we're all not born doctors. i think people need to realise that there's a reason why house officers aren't specialists (yet). we're fresh from medical school. we're just getting accustomed to this whole new experience of work and i think i'd consider it more like a learning experience. i'd like to think that medicine is all about learning something new everyday. and it doesn't matter if we didnt know this fact today. we learn. and then we know it the next day.
the malaysian health care system has got to change. this whole hierarchy thing is not going to get us anywhere. house officers being afraid of mos and specialists. pissing in their pants every time they're being yelled or called names at. it isn't fair. we all start out by being house officers. and then we climb that ladder up. didn't you, you and you?
i think, that if you want to be respected, or be looked upon, you need to earn it. i could respect the position that you're in, but it wouldn't make any difference if you don't deserve to be respected.
i think i learn better from my superiors when we're friends. when i am able to voice my opinions and doubts and not be afraid of its consequences - afterall, the only reason why i ask questions is because i absolutely have no clue! DOOFUS.
and at my current place, the only person that truly inspires me and who really deserves my respect, is my neurology consultant. she is awesome. and she is an epitome of how a great doctor should be.
and absolutely, not you. :)
