officially a doctor now. bali trip tomorrow. korea soon. :)

you know it ;)

oh, this has gotta be the good life!

updates soon, when i get back from livin' my life :D

i conquered FOUR SHOPPING MALLS today. all in one day. WTF?!

seriously, when you want something, you can't find it. and when you're not interested in it the blardy thing keeps showing in front of your effin' face. pfft.

shopping for my graduation ball dress and convocation dress have proved to be a pain in the arse. ooohh yes. rolls eyes.

afterall, penang is only, merely an island. blergh. retire early tonight, and gear up for tomorrow again! ho ho ho.

this is crazy. this is madness. this is ridiculous. absurd. this is still SO SURREAL!

i will not stop anyone from calling me mabel with the additional DEEE AREEE (DR. you retard) in front. :) because i show off like that :) LOL. jokes jokes.

but no, i am still your average mabel. your average 'student' everyday. because hey, studying medicine doesn't just end right there. it's neverending, as if you haven't already heard.

it's been a whirlwind of emotions. it's been a crazy, rollercoaster ride. FIVE FREAKIN' YEARS. i didn't think i'd last that long. but hey, here i am. crossed the finish line. who said i wouldn't make it? NAH. IN YOUR FACE. nonetheless, i will not deny the fact that there have been umpteennnn times that i just really considered quitting, considered commiting suicide from the balcony of my bukit jalil room on the 23rd floor. kisah benar. so many times that i cried, wishing i had done something else, anything, but medicine. but i knew that there was no turning back and all i could do was to move on, a step at a time. say loads of prayers to God, asking Him to lead me, guide me. He's been my most faithful supporter through these trying times of mine. (ok, and my mum LOL). and i think of all the people's lives that i've made a difference in, and the wonderful friends and just random strangers, inspirational role models that have crossed my path - it gives me strength. so here, i would like to thank a few people (shuddup lah, very typical of me i know but wat the fuck you're reading my blog):

mum: for EVERYTHING that you've provided me with. for your endless love and words of wisdom and encouragement. i am here not because of myself (ok maybe a bit lah harrr) but because of you.

God: for answering my prayers every night. for showing me the way. for loving me.

surin: it's been FIVE YEARS! and YOU have been there for me (i'm sure ive been there for you also tsk) every step of the way. from the first day of medical school, right up till now. the crying sessions, gossipstressrelieving sessions, makan moments, whining moments (only you can hear me whine allll the time - because you whine the same amount also! LOL). and to mummy and daddy, for being my second mummy and daddy. love you much. i'll see you soon.

michelle: whadya know woman. it'll be your turn soon. i wouldn't have done this without you. what with all the boy problems feck them. although we're oceanssss apart (sounds like a dramamama love story), i'm glad we had each other through thick and thin. and the numerous sleep over sessions! :) love you more!

B: i don't know how to call you by name anymore. so weird. 2.5 years, through all the madness. the fights and cries. through the happy, crazy, "exotic" times :D i drove me up the wall all the time, but you always knew your way around me. thank you for being there whenever i was a mess, during my pms moments and for allowing me to violently slap you in your balls (not literally!) when it all gets to crazy. most of all, for believing that i could do anything and for being my number one fan :) love you.

ho wai: my faithful walking encyclopaedia :) what would i have done without you. where would all the fun be?! from you, i've learnt so much, not only from a medical perspective, but life as a whole. how to not learn tai chi to survive in this world! how to not learn how to skip class and not get caught, sleep in the oncall rooms, to divert the lecturer's attention, to divert anything and everything to our own benefit! :D hahaha. you know i love you. thanks for looking out for me always and saving my burnt ass all the time and for bringing me life! :)

housies pik and lump and second housie maya T: my two lesbian partners at home. where would i be releasing my sexual frustrations if not for you guys? :D thank you for everything, we did it! will you all ever call me by my proper name again? :( LOL. always your bo :)

sooiphing: for being the most understanding non-medically related bestfriend i ever had. for believing in me and for your neverending shower of love, care and support. here's to many more penang moments! :)  

dr wong: for your patience, guidance (literally spoon feeding me) and words of inspiration. you are nothing but the best friend, best lecturer, and best counsellor and best senior i've ever had. i think i do like nephrology a little bit more ;) thank you for everything.

joel: 'marry me' always makes me smile :) thank you for constantly cheering me along the way and for the random surprises that you do to make my day feel more alive at every single moment. and for being there to hear me out and telling me that i can do it. i did it :) and you will too. i'll wait to hear you bring the same news i brought to you 2 days ago. i have every faith in you! love you much! :)

shaf: for just being you. for calming me down all the time, and for having faith in me. and for all the prayers too! :) wouldn't have done it without you.

everyone in IMU: to the datos (my favourite is youknowwho) for your constant guidance and words of wisdom, i am here today, BECAUSE YOU ALL PASSED ME. rofl. dato, you've been an inspiration and the best teacher i could ever ask for. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

family and friends: to everyone i didnt mention, you know i have you in my heart. for your unwavering support and faith in me, and for sticking by me through it all, i love you! :)

here's to the entire C1/09 batch, here's to us! we all did it. i'm sorry if i were ever a pain in the ass. i'm extremely honored to have been part of the batch. here's to an awesome and bright future for all of us :) YUM SENG! :)

 congratulations once again, to the graduating class of C1/09 MBBS IMU! :)


as for me, i shall now retire. clean up my disgustingly terrible room and house with random boxes all over. i will see you all soon. toodles!

it's time. to prove that i am worth it. to prove that i've actually done something for the past 5 years. its been 5 years down the road. and it still seems unbelievable and so surreal to me.

in less than 24 hours, judgement day.

wish me luck. pray! i will be home with good news. :)

this goes out to my entire batch, even if we dont see eye to eye, from the bottom of my heart, i hope we all get pass the finishing line together.

someone wise said, the only person to fail you, is yourself.

CHARGEEEEE! :)