Of charity dinner, flu, accidents and pure bad luck

The charity dinner on Friday night was great. I mean not that I'm glad there's a charity fund raising event for such a disaster but I just thought it was a great way to help those involved. 400 tables were allocated. 400! Wow.. And each was Rm2000. Of course, mine was FOC heeee =D Volunteers were collecting donations everywhere, each with a small box in their arms. And you can never miss out the rich-and-famous in events like these.


So the night started with all your when-is-this-gonna-end speech by the rich and famous. And then there was food. I am sincerely sorry that all I thought about at that point was food rather than oh-how-sad-this-is. So did my aunt by the way LOL Then the opening performance was a dance and oh my god, that performance was absolutely beautiful. Stunning. Im sorry there aren't any pics of it in here but it just took my breath away. So much so that I forgot to snap a few shots of it. =( Then there's Ling Yu Zhong ( if you don't already know, he's an upcoming Chinese Malaysian singer, appearing in AEC a lot these days ).. and Ah Niu and some other guy I dont know. And the list of performances goes on and on..








For those who can't read Chinese, it means "Earthquake has no mercy, but Malaysians have love" in direct translation. And yes, I couldn't read it either thank you.






Lurveee the candle light effect!!

That's Ling Yu Zhong, or however you spell his name.

Me and my aunt =)

But the most captivating and touching moment was during the poem recital. It isn't exactly a poem, they just recited it like a story. And it was almost like watching a real drama on tv. And for a moment, I thought I was there at the scene as well. First was a lady, who spoke of the different people at their bravest moments at different times and place. And it was filled with so much of passion and so much emotion that it almost made me cry as well. Then there was a little girl, probably of age 11 or 12, and a woman. And they acted out a scene as well. That was it. I could just feel the overwhelming emotion from from the two cos they were just superbly excellent and for a girl that young, you really have to give her all the credits. And they both cried. The emcees interviewed them, and asked the little girl what was her advise to the earthquake victims, she replied so maturedly, as compared to any of the girls her age "Dont give up. We will be with you till the very end".

That wraps up the whole night. A very heart warming one indeed =) A big thank you to my aunt!

Now back to reality (you know im always away from it gah!), the flu bug caught up. And I just hate it. It just ruins everything you know. Im already really lacking behind in my studies, havent even done half of endocrine, and here I am sneezing my nose away. WTH. Whoever who spread this bug to me, CURSE YOU!!! grrrr..and because I have allergies and all that, it makes the whole ordeal worse. ISH!!

And then, I nearly got smashed up by the barricade in front of vista B. That idiot guard plainly and clearly had no brains nor eyes to see and to know that we were all passing by. And just because I was the front most person, with Huda walking behind me, it just obviously hit me. ASSHOLE. A big thank you to Huda who yelled at him for me =DD

The string of bad luck doesn't just end there. While I was at pasar malam with Sooi on tues night, with the rain pouring down on my stupid face, my sandals just gave its way. GREAT. Here I am, trying to protect myself from getting wet, there it goes putting me in more agony and humility for I had to drag it all the way back to the car. GEEEEE THANKS!!

Mishaps aside. We visited the dialysis centre yesterday and it was definitely an eye-opener. I never knew that it would put the patients into so much of pain, trouble and hassle. I mean, your life is altered forever. You have to restrict your diet, come for dialysis 3 tiems a week, each session lasting for 4 hours, have a fistula done on your arm for the needle to go through and mind you, the needle is just humungous!! And all the commitment one has to put into it, it was just a sad sight. Very sad. And I was just telling Vivien, if ever I had end stage renal disease (renal failure) , and if i cant get a kidney transplant, I'd just probably go to India and buy one and get it illegally done there. LOL I dont wana spend the rest of my life living and depending ona dialysis machine! The mental torture, together with the physical is just unbearable. But I learnt alot from it. The sister as great. Everything was great except that the fact that IMU staff are just to lazy that they couldnt even draw us a map.

Anyways, its been a long one. Looking forward to home tomorrow. =) Don't look forward to any updates soon. Exam's near and I think I really need to lock in 5th gear. Tutuusss!! =D

Disaster strikes

spoken: Think about the generations and to say we want to make it a better world for our children and our children's children. So that they know it's a better world for them; and think if they can make it a better place.

There's a place in your heart And I know that it is love

And this place could be much Brighter than tomorrow.

And if you really try You'll find there's no need to cry

In this place you'll feel There's no hurt or sorrow.

There are ways to get there

If you care enough for the living

Make a little space, make a better place.

Chorus: Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place

for You and for me.

If you want to know why

There's a love that cannot lie

Love is strong It only cares for joyful giving.

If we try we shall see

In this bliss we cannot feel

Fear or dread We stop existing and start living

Then it feels that always

Love's enough for us growing

Make a better world, make a better world.

Chorus: Heal the world

Make it a better place

For you and for me and the entire human race.

There are people dying

If you care enough for the living

Make a better place

for You and for me.

Bridge: And the dream we would conceived in

Will reveal a joyful face

And the world we once believed in

Will shine again in grace

Then why do we keep strangling life

Wound this earth, crucify it's soul

Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly

Be God's glow.

We could fly so high

Let our spirits never die

In my heart I feel You are all my brothers

Create a world with no fear

Together we'll cry happy tears

See the nations turn

Their swords into plowshares

We could really get there

If you cared enough for the living

Make a little space to make a better place.

There are a lot of stories unheard of. How their survival instincts lead them to do what they did. It's sadly unfortunate that the aftershocks are hitting them again. 15 million displaced. 15 million. Death toll have now increased to 70,000. Or maybe more now. I suppose i can call China part of my home too because my granddad and my grand uncles are all fr china itself, which makes me a quarter of being a real mainland chinese (forgive me for my not-so-accurate mandarin please). And to know that Malaysian Chinese (or the entire Malaysian community, i'm not quite sure) have donated a colossal amount of RM15 million, is definitely something worth noting. I'm looking forward to this Friday's charity dinner at Mines with my aunt. Will talk about it soon.

guitar heroes

LOL thank you to hui fang who showed me this..really loved it to bits!! =DD

and like i said to hui fang..* I secretly wished archie would take off his pants too * LOL

david arculeta and one republic

I'm sorry i just have to put this in here! oh my god david.. you make me want you more!

I'm sorry i'm verging on being desperate here but somebody just hold me back..HELP!!

I take what i said previously. Maybe David Archuleta deserves to win a little bit more than Cook..ouch..but I still love you Cook =DD

Of Buses and Trains

It's amazing how complex the human mind can be. Have you ever had this moment, where you'd just be sitting down at your table, and then you get lost in your pool of thoughts. So many things running through your mind. From what lunch'll be tmr, to how about dinner tonight? And then, how you get to where you are today, to what happens next to the China earthquake victims. And then, you forget what you were thinking of just a second ago. So much so that it amazes you that one could think of so many a things at one particular moment.


Anyways, I went home for the Wesak day celebration. And as usual, the temples were packed like sardines. Would never missed out a chance to follow the procession though. It was absolutely beautiful. I don't know if there are any of these in KL or not.


Chronicles of Narnia (Prince Caspian) was absolute brilliant for your info. And I really have to admit that all of them had better acting skills than my beloved Daniel Radcliffe. (I still love you Daniel=) And oh my, Edmund (Skandar Keynes) is soooo very hot! Since when did his testosterone levels shot up this high??!! Take me with you,Edmund!! LOL Quote Michelle: Oh my god, since when did we become paedophiles??!! LOL

Sigh..every girls' dream =) *melts*

Here's to another great news. The new American Idol has finally been crowned. As much as I want David Archuleta to win, I wanted Cook to win as well. So basically, I'm torn apart. I think they both really deserved it, and this is probably the most talented and interesting season there has been. There were already tonnes of speculations that it was gonna be a showdown between the two Davids. And true enough, it was. I didn't like Cook's performance last night that much as compared to his previous ones and Archuleta's, and I seriously would've stood by Simon. But then again, credit has to be given for the courage and effort they've both put in and to be able to stand in front of millions of people is something worth applauding for. Here's to Archie who never fails to mesmerize me with his rendition of "imagine" and "heaven" and to Cook for "always be my baby". Cant wait for their albums!! No pirated copies please, people. =D

His crowning glory.

David david david david!!

On to the not so happy news, when I found out about the earthquake that hit Sichuan, China from my mum, it didn't hit me hard enough yet as to how much damage it cost. Until my aunt told me she was literally crying when she the news on tv, then only did I surfed the net for more pics and info. It was plain horrible. I mean, it isn't just about how many people who're dead, and how many more are left trapped underneath all the rubble, but the damage that it brings to the survivors as well as their families is incomprehensible. Imagine your life being scarred forever. It's the aftermath that needs to be tended to. And at the same time, rescue and relief efforts have to go hand in hand. What's the use of getting people out of there when they're probably gonna die in the end without proper food, water and sanitation. It's a sad, sad world out there. Fathers and mothers dead, children gone...*sigh*

My heart goes out to those griefing and to the survivors. I wished the world would be a better place to live in for all.

Hallucinations and fantasies

I just don't seem to understand people of the opposite sex. And i've always wondered why God created them in the first place. I mean other than the fact that opposite sex attracts each other, and they have sex and boom, out comes a baby to expand the horizon of humanity, I see no other reasons as to why they even exist. They're just impossible to be with! They think so highly of themselves and that they're so cute and hot and at anytime of the day, they can get any kind of girl they want. They're just absolutely, utterly absurd and ridiculous. Hello, if i'm nice to you doesnt mean i have a thing for you. In case you're wondering, I should suggest that each and everyone of you buy yourself a mirror. Stop fantasizing and hallucinating like i know you always do. Don't even venture into thinking and believing that you're any ladies' man. Don't even go there. You're way too out of place.

All of the above totally does not apply to my 2 weeks faci for pbl, Dr. Tan. Oh my god, he's so cute. Scratch that. LOL

ps: sigh Yee Hui Fang, I really shouldn't have announced it to the world that i had a nickname of lebam. Now I'm making headlines in your blog. Thank you for the publicity. (She's gonna say she's welcome)

Home soon

Forget the "mariah carey" post. It was just one of those really bad days where everything comes crashing down on you. Where everything becomes topsy turvy. Sigh. Anyways, life isn't getting that much easier. The problem with me is, I keep wanting to go out, keep wanting to stay away from my lecture notes as much as possible. More like I want to have a life. Yeah, y'all know it. Medical students are deprived of a life. It feels like a student prison here. And the more I do that, the more the notes pile up. It does get to me really, but the fact that I'm not doing anything about it just irritates myself and I'm stressed because Im just not rectifying the problem.

Then I keep wondering if medicine is really my calling. I know I want to be there. In Africa, in Iraq and all those war-torn and poverty-stricken places that you can name of. But somehow, that reason is just not strong enough to assure myself that yes, I am doing the right thing at this very moment.

I don't know if I will ever stop asking myself this very same question. I know I do it rather often, especially those whom I confide in, they'd prob have heard this a million times in a year or so. I'm just mad at myself that Im going in circles, back to the point where it all started. Circles are bad ok. Sigh again.

Anyways, Im glad Im going home this Friday for Wesak day. Really can't wait to be home with mum. I've missed Mother's day for the very first time. And I feel really, really bad. Sigh thrice.


ps: Yee Hui Fang, call me lebam again and you shall wait for the day I come back and kick your ass. Han Yin's coming back! I guess. We have to get together! No exams excuses please. Lol

mad

I AM SOOO MAD NOW!
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY!
EVERYTHING IS OUT OF PLACE.
EVERYTHING'S NOT RIGHT.
EVERY GIRL IS A BITCH
EVERY GUY IS A BASTARD
THE WORLD IS SO UNFAIR.

I know this is a little "mariah carey" kinda thing. Maybe cause i'm having one of those days in a 28 days cycle thing. You know what. ARGH! But those hormones are just raging up and down now! And i just really wanna kill somebody! Anybody!
My handphone's not working, my housemate's leaving soon, my lecture notes are way behind time, i haven't finish reading my pbl, i haven't started reading endocrine, exam's coming again

MY LIFE IS OUT OF CONTROL!

smelly tofu!

I had my first smelly tofu (chau tau fu) experience today and I really loved it !! =D Thank you Chee Sooi Phing! She probably would've burst out in pride after reading this. LOL But nonetheless, it was a wonderful night out =) I was expecting it to be really smelly, and garbagy, but it wasn't that bad afterall. In fact, it wasn't bad at all. Just a very mild longkang smell. LOL. But once its in your mouth, it tasted like any other ordinary tofu. YUMMMMM!!

Looking forward to next tuesday =)

mother's day in advance

The past one week was great as well. Classes for endo system ended on wed, which means I managed to sneak back to my lovey dovey home!! =) Caught up with so much of tv and my favourtie programmes, met up with Jasmin cause she wanted to show me that wonderful place of hers =) I am so looking forward to it.

Another main purpose of going back was to celebrate mother's day in advance with mum for I won't be celebrating it this year with her. sobs. First time. I made her a photo frame with me and her in it of course. teehee. And just so coincidental that while we were having our buffet dinner at Revolving, cat, kg and pei were there too! Haven't seen pei in ages already! Oh my god, the ice-cream was absolutely fantastic. Haven't indulge myself like this for a long long time. Such satisfaction! =D



Yaiks, that's a sausage LOL

And in the end, I wasn't very fond of the idea of coming back to kl again. As usual. Hate it. What with Dr. Francis Achike as my pbl faci. Ain't very encouraging. But he said I had a beautiful name. HAHA. So much for those who love calling me bobo, meibolou, meibo, or whatever.

Lip Jin called me last night by the way. All the way from Tasmania. So wasn't expecting it! Haven't seen him in ages already! Since A-levels ended, since I came here, since he left for Tasmania. WOW. Although he had to send me a not so pleasant comment on fb first before doing so. But LOL. He made me realize that I'm already really lucky to be here near home, while so many other ppl are overseas and alone. It really gets to you esp when you're sick out there. Sigh. I always thought maybe it was a blessing in disguise. HMmm..

Anyways, abit sad that tmr's a public holiday and that mum and dad isn't here. =( At least I'm going over to Sooi's place. Not that bad. Gets me through the day happier =)

Till the next one!

IMU ball '08

After months and weeks of michelle bugging me, I finally decided that i should really go for the IMU ball. In fact, i knew i would go in the end. Its just that i needed a little more persuasion and all that mushy mushy words of "it wouldn't be fun without you mabel!!" LOL. Yeah, i can already hear the word "bitch" from mich's mouth, plus the rolling of eyes and all. teehee =) It could've been slightly more memorable, cos it felt as if it was a really brief gathering in which everyone was dressed to the nines and just out of the ordinary shirt and tie, slacks and skirts and blouses and all of those formal wear to which we were so accustomed to already in uni. And not forgetting the cam-whoring sessions and the battle of who has the most pictures.

These are some of my more favourite pics. If you're interested =) For more, go to facebook LOL

That's a muhibah pic (quote: jian min)

Yay! The penangites =)

That's the table I was in. I know, I'm the odd one XD

I will miss her =(

M206 girls

Mum was there to see me off!! =) It was 230 am and she's tired LOL

From left: Michelle, me, Lameena and Abi

Aha, Law Ngie Chang (who never fails to throw the rubbish LOL)

Xiao Fen, my housemate =) I will miss her too

Came back at 230am, mum waited up for me..aww!! i love you mum! Cleaned the makeup. Oh my god, it was so hard to take it off like i had a permanent marker pen drawn onto my eyes. Didn't even bothered to wash my hair, which was soaked in gel and glittery jittery dusts. Jumped into bed, and goodnight.

ps: I did wash my bed sheet the next morning LOL

The Bitch Next Door

I bet you think you're pretty smart.
I bet you think you're too hot to be true.

You know what?
Stop with that childish, overly-immature behaviour of yours.
And get a grip in life.

Oh, im sorry that life isn't what you expected or want it to be.
But that's the way it is.
And im sorry that you have to live with it.

If you haven't already learn,
Learn to grow up.
Learn to live with others.
Learn to be a little more responsible.
Learn to stop being so self-centered and selfish.
Learn to start behaving like an adult and not a 2 month old baby.
Learn to clean up your own mess after everytime you mess up your own ass.
Learn to be more patient.
Learn to stop taking advantage of others.

And finally,
Learn to be a little more of use to society.
And stop ruining my day.



David Cook killed me with this song. Oh my god.

Forgetting You

I'm afraid.

That i might forget you one day.

No I won't, you silly.

You're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

The greatest gift that God gave to me.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.

But I'm still scared.

Maybe I just can't bear to lose you.

I have missed you every single day.

And I just can't sleep without a day talking to you.

I know they all leave.

The way we all do.

And soon, you and I too.

Shut up! What are you talking about?!

Live every moment, cherish every single day.

You live, inside of me and will always be close to my heart.

That is all that counts.

Totally had a blast over the wkend. A little not so pleasant that my celine dion dream didnt exactly turn out, but thanks guys for the thought. REALLY. It's really all that matters. To those who were a part of it, u know who u are..I LOVE YOU!!!! =D ps: my every year birthday present still stands KH =)

Anyways, I slept over at Sooi's place which was really really great cos i had Wah Lai Toi to cheer me up!! *grins* i miss my astro =( And that girl *shakes head* we bought back half a duck for dinner!! oh my god, it was nothing but an eating spree for the past two days! We had that for dinner ( we were almost dead by the end of it ), tau sar pneah for supper, and AGAIN, that same duck porridge we couldnt finish during dinner. Yup, all in one day. That guiltiness just sweeps over me everytime i take a bite, with mum's words "dont eat so much d loh, later ur prom dress cant fit u then sei.." OOPS..LOL Then breakfast was egg tarts, lunch at sg wang ws wan than me with fried carrot cake, and dinner was exceptionally bizzarely filling as well. I wouldnt be surprise if my ass gets any bigger anytime soon =(

Mum's down here already. She's at her seminar now. Cant wait to see her back tonight!! =D

I just cant help but to put this video of David Archuletta in here. I love this piece to death!! =)

ps: Ah Sooi, cheers to the times we had!! and thanks for the sg wang, breakfast, lunch and dinner. *hugs* See you again very soon =)

I'll Be Remembering You

The weekend has been, i must say, one of the more memorable ones without mum and dad by my side ever since the whole kl ordeal started. Sooi picked me up on thurs after lectures supposedly to go pasar malam at her place, but it turned out to be raining and all, so we didnt manage to. Instead, picked up some black pepper duck from sri petaling (i have never seen that shop in my entire stay here until Sooi pointed it out to me LOL) and brought it back to her place at OUG to eat! AAHHH!! How i love her place!! =) i wished she would've come down to kl much earlier, so i could've bunked in with her =( *sigh*

Anyways, Sat was spent shopping with Fen at Pavillion, Times Square (met Mei Yin), and Sg Wang. I came back with blisters on my foot thank you. arghh. The agony. I was supposed to buy myself a dinner bag and shoes for the prom but it so happened that i bought a loaf bread from bread story instead. THAT WAS ALL. Sun was great as well. Met up with the CLS gang at KLCC. my dearest Hui Li, ET, Mel, Cheryl and Genie =) Would've been better with cat, kg, blian etc. OMG we just couldnt stop talking bout DOPEY. Blian would love this. LOL Sooi picked me up again for dinner that evening. Honestly, she's prob the best thing that has ever happened to me apart from Fen, ever since i came down to KL. She should've been here earlier. i love you Sooi!!

So, I said i'd talk bout home and the hols here. Bout family. Friends and all.

CNY wasnt all that great. EOS was so perfectly scheduled that it had to fall in the midst of the celebration. Like WOW. However however, i still did manage to have that teeny weeny bit of fun with my family and friends as well, although i looked like an idiot bringing my books along. BITCH. Anyways, here they are. There arent many pics because i spent most of my time book-whoring you see *smirk*




That's my aunt gossipping to my cousib bro who's too busy taking a pic =)

My cousin bro and his gf =)

My cousin sister

Spent the next week of hols doing my hospital attachment. Loved the kids at paeds ward to bits =) I honestly think i might just specialize into paediatrics if not for KH's words ringing in my ears " aiyer, but there're so many ppl who wants to be paeds now" thank you KH.

That's Grace, the clinic assistant =)

Dinner with Jasmin and the yamaha gang was great too. Haven't met them in ages!! esp Hui Fang and Yap, my band mates =) awww..i miss my senzation and le fort vague and the electone fest days!!! This time, with new gossips and new news to be heard and much more to rejoice for! =) AHHH!! i so wanna be part of it!! =D

Jasmin and Siva

Denise, Dylan and me! I love them =)

My violin teacher and bandmate, Yap

LOL, he loves the attention =D

That's Hui Fang

Another great news, my niece!!! YES IM AN AUNT! she's 4 month's old now. And my cousin sis's gonna bring her back to pg for us to play with her really really soon. Prob in June. YAY! Ain't she cute?? teeheeee =)

That's just me with the "ku" during goddess of mercy's birthday. or is it? i dont know. i think so. my aunt took it back. LOL

There goes the holidays. Here comes reality crashing into my face. Missing mum so much right now. For the first time, im not goin back home until the end of the month. APPLAUSE PLEASE!!!! hello, some encouragement will do a long way here. LOL anyways, lookin forward to her being down this weekend. she'll be staying here till the next. so she'll be sending me off to prom. LOL haha. Anyways, till the next one =)