psycho?

maybe after psychiatry i'd be able to diagnose what i have.

obs ended. extremely and utterly sad. because i realise i love it so much. SO VERY MUCH. my favourite posting, even way better than paeds.

exams did not go well at all. i know this is becoming a routine. me complaining how bad it is. but i just know it that this time i have failed 2 papers. i know i did. so don't. DON'T. just leave me alone.

weekend back home was great. stopped by ipoh for chicken hor fun and salted chicken and 10 boxes of funny mountain! :) and a whole lot of singing on the way I GOTTA FEELING!! lol. and AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME. and the weirdest thing was both songs played again while we were on our back from penang. TOTALLY WEIRD.

today's first day of psych. i feel...empty. i feel... useless. i guess obs pushed me so much that i didn't even realise i could do so much. so i guess that sudden feeling of doing nothing really made me feel lost. psych seems pretty relaxed alright. but i have so much at hand.

research papers. fucked up with the time. sorry for the language but i can't help it.

ims. coming soon. and with people i'm not very fond of working with. i don't really care.

eos 7 looming in. i don't know. i just want to pass. and be happy. and to go to Edinburgh.

and so many other things to figure out. if this is all i want. if this is really enough for me. if this is what i'm searching for. and i don't have much time. i can't keep doing this. it hurts me. it hurts everyone.

if only time would lay still. and the world lies frozen in time. in that empty silence.